Lalalal!

I HAVE MOVED.

2008-03-06T03:49:00.000-08:00

I'VE MOVED!! UPDATE YOUR LINKIESSSSSSS! LALALALALALALALALALA! =D *click click click*!

I MIGHT be moving.

2008-03-03T01:46:00.001-08:00

Yes people,you've heard me right. I MIGHT be moving to wordpress this time. I just revived my 2yearoldabandoned account there and yeah, a change once in a while? I just love their layout so much better, i don't know why also wtf. so simple and sweet and pro looking wtf although i love my banner above very much *.*

hmmm can anyone teach me how to move my archives there? T__T' another one of the reasons i wanna move there is that their comment box is just so much nicer than haloscan wtf although you may argue that blogger blogskin's provide such comment boxes too, i just do not quite like blogger's template. and if i really wanna get my own domain name, i reckon i better start moving my things to wordpress by now?

hmmmm i wanna buy inspiration right now. T__T'
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on another note, i am currently compiling lists of complaints and/or suggestions for the school so yeah, SGians/ ex sgians/ whoever concerned lah, please do leave a comment if you want to be heard, thanks. no matter how minor the issue is, i promise i will bring it all up in the next council meeting which is like...next week? i dunno wtf i need to compile my notes. if there's anything you are unhappy about you can always come up to me and talk to me about it wtf i am always free to layan these constructive comments wan wtf. =D

or if you do not want your views to be exhibited publically in the blog, you can always email me at sintoxicated@live.com or via msn. my msn is bubbles14510@hotmail.com. thanks so much! =D

seriously, we've gotta start doing somethings somewhere. everyone just keeps saying OH I HATE THE SCHOOL but when i ask why they just go like OH NO REASON wtf how can you hate the school for no reason! cannot one lah ok! at least gimme a cause so that the council can do something about it lah right! =D please bear in mind that EVERYONE of you, without exception, are members of the student council- without fail. its your RIGHTS to demand change. =)

Me: eh here's ur chance to shine wtf what you don't like about the school/ suggestion better tell now.
Ch: Dont like MissX
HB: yes, too fat. spoil eyes.
Ch: ask us if we are ready for spm wtf its only MARCH.
HB: yes. somemore say 5sc1 the school's hope at least ask our PERMISSION if we can be your hope because we decline to be your hope.
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHHA!

Big big boom wtf.

2008-03-03T01:20:00.000-08:00

Hmm i am working on something right now, hence, the business. I shall not reveal until the time's right wtf although some of you already know but then ah don't tell ppl yet teehee wtf.

currently pretty disappointed at a said person for not replying my email. like hello, it's serious stuff i am bringing up over here. you replied to almost every other nonsensical ones BUT NOT MINE. what angers me more is the fact that i am doing this for someone else. for a good cause, to be exact.
okayla bye i should just finish up what i started instead of procrastinating the whole time =_='

Before i forgettt.

2008-02-29T05:26:00.000-08:00

if your birthdays fall on today, you are real lucky. or not? okay so in short, you celebrate your birthday once every four years and the next time i'll be able to greet everyone HAPPY LEAP YEAR, i will be 18 already.

=D

Forever? I kid you not.

2008-02-29T01:29:00.000-08:00

seriously, forever? are you kidding me? it's easy to say, pleasant to the ears but then truthfully, deep down, do you believe in the term 'forever'? forever is a painstakingly long period of time.

in fact, seeing people throw the word around just and when they want sickens me.

don't say something if your don't mean it.

Busy Busy.

2008-02-23T19:40:00.000-08:00

Sorry everyone it has been a few real hectic days and i really can't make time for blogging. and when i do have time for it, i am not in the mood so yeah, you get it lah. forensic's over. i didn't get into semi's- unsurprisingly. omg you should seriously see how those people there are all sooooooo good in speaking i am nothing compared to most of them ahem wtf.

the debate teams were all really good but tough luck, i guess? Malc and Shaun ended up debating with ALL THE BEST debate teams in the competition in the preliminary rounds. ALL the 4 they debated with got number 1, 2, 3 and 4 in the end so you get lah what i am trying to say really rotten luck wei. =_=' i don't know much about steven and veemelia's debate though. either way, i would say that the debate teams reallyyyyyyy did a great job. i think all that's lacking is the arguing like a mad lady skills one of the debators got which was rather annoying- just looking at her kiasuness WTF.

the debate finals was well, all i can say is thank god the winner won. =)

and surayyn made it to the semis. gooooddddd job! i just don't understand why the judges commented that it was alot like 'storytelling' compared to 'solo acting' because i beg to differ lor! I mean, he even CRIED ok! How many of you can huhuhuhuhuh? it was seriously a play! if this is considered storytelling, then i wonder what do you call that girl who start talking and talking was doing wtf. but on a brighteeeerrr note, isabelle and hera got into the finals.

AND GOT BRONZE! Congratsssss girls! =D realllyyy a milestone for our humble SG, ahen. =D

HEAVY picture post coming. till then, tata. ;]

i don't know if it's just me but the sight of a person just...makes me smile.

T__T'

2008-02-20T02:23:00.000-08:00

ya allah i really need to read up more!

like forensics tomorrow and i am frantically searching for usable phrases right now. i should really read up more on Shakespeare wtf i damn like him but then his othello literature book is so deep in meaning i don't get it! *shallow la wtf*

Eye of newt and toe of frog, wool of bat and tongue of dog

like omg can anyone of you make sense out of that wtf is that yo can i like curse ppl with it i damn love shakespeare but why must he make reading so hard for fellow readers like me who are not really good in the the english and literary department why oh whyyy! T_T' it's like from the bottom of my heart i really want to read his pieces one lor but....sighs. =(

but i still need quotes! like omg memang last minute research ok i am a phailure beyond hope. =___=' and on a bitter note i dont know what to wear for tomorrow and i have to be in school by SEVEN wtf so early justkillmelah anyone wanna yumcha with me? T__T'

and also, shakespeare is sexist, apparently! look at what he quoted la!

"fraility, thy name is woman."

SEXIST OR NOT YOU TELL ME!

okayla bye la bye la i wanna research on more shakespeare quotes. T__T'

i've got enough.

2008-02-18T05:34:00.000-08:00

TO HELL WITH CONSERVATIVENESS, THIS IS *MY* BLOG OK.

i am seriously angry this time. red alert, dear friends. you guys KNOW what i turn into when i am angry.

a larger-than-life bitch, that is.

wtf if you've got a damn problem with me, tell me right in my face. STOP BOTHERING OTHER PEOPLE'S MOM. GOT GET A LIFE OR BORROW *YOUR* MOM'S (i quote, lim may zhee wtf) , TERIMA KASIH.

i don't need ANYONE to teach me how to blog. since WHEN has blogging became so commercialized that i have to succumb to your wants? I BLOG THE PHOOISZE WAY. I SAY WHAT I WANT AND IF YOU'VE GOT A PROBLEM WITH IT, GO BLOG THE WAY YOU WANT IN *YOUR* 'WHELE' OWN BLOG.

seriously i thought after everything that happened 'fine, forgive and forget.' AND TADAA, YOU JUST HAVE TO BE SUCH A STUPID BITCH BY CREATING A MOUNTAIN OUT OF A MOLEHILL. seriously, get some DICKnity yo. tak suka i? don't effing read my blog than, loser. what business have you got here? trying to scan for my mistakes so that you can drag me into trouble?

don't act all innocent when you yourself asked my friend about 'what will your dad say if you ask him the definition of mother fucker' because you know what? you yourself isn't any better and you try so hard to frame me? religion wise somemore fwah! i've got EVERYTHING i need to launch a caunter attack.

EVEN YOUR PEERS SUPPORTS ME LA DIU. TAK SEDAR DIRI AH? LOOK AT HOW MANY FRIENDS YOU HAVE LA THAT REFLECTS ALOT ABOUT YOUR ATTITUDE. YAYA I AM SUCH A BITCH- AND THAT IS BECAUSE I CAN AFFORD TO BE ONE. like it or not, i've got 9723498573x more ppl by my side. and your fear is that ks3 will dislike you?

oh, thats EXACTLY what i am capable of, should you provoke me any further. i am already giving you more than enough face and don't you DARE think you can sit on my head. bear in mind- i've got wayyy more support than you do. wanna launch a war? even your prefect friends (i shall not mention names) dislikes you and calls you a dogmatic ok? those coming our straight from form 5 mouths. doesn't that explains ALOT about your vengeance? we seela who win we shall see who will be the one not having face to even attend school yo.

opps, am i scaring you?

YES, BECAUSE I AM A BITCH. DON'T LIKE IT? DON'T VISIT MY BLOG. GO BLOG YOURSELF LA WHAT BUSINESS HAVE YOU GOT TO TEACH ME WTF I AM LITERALLY SMARTER THAN YOU ANYWAY EVEN YOUR FRIENDS SAYS THT AND THT'S PROBABLY BECAUSE YOU ARE DUMB BEYOND REASONS WTF.

dumb people should just shut up. no, really. i mean it. and don't you dare try act innocent and say it's all your friend's fault. it's YOUR fault, as far as I am concerned. mess with me and we shall see who is a BIGGER bitch pfft. i shall revive my bombing skills from the graveyard lolol why am i so funny wtf. but if it really does happen i suppose it won't be THAT funny anymore. ask anyone who read my blog during 2006- early 2007. ask vivien, brit, ariel, chea, siang and practically everyone. you will get what i mean why am i so cute omg! =DDDD

even YOUR ustazah says there is NOTHING wrong to use 'ya allah'. what else have you got to say? WHAT?! even ustazah says it's right. even the mufti of kedah says it's right. are you trying to 'over write the Koran by correcting what that isn't within your capability'?, OH MY, HOW DARE YOU! i told you guys from the beginning i KNOW i was right. :3 you don't have to find a reason so hard just to pick fault with me. you don't even need a reason lolol. =)

okla actually everyone who read this just wasted 5 mins of your life. conclusion is, you just should mind your own business and get on with your life instead of trying so hard to be involved in MINE wtf.

My cny.

2008-02-17T21:07:00.000-08:00

yaya it's so late to blog about this i know. all pictures UNEDITED. readers discretion advised ;P

I still munched on it although according to the rest of the world, it's calories wtf. I don't see the oil literally oozing out so i actually don't really care about...the fat wtf. =.='

i fail as a girl.
Breakfast/lunch on the first or second day, i can't remember.

The jelly which REAL GOOD stuff T__T'

And then i broke my toenail on the way to my grandaunt's house. i don't even know why/how it broke i just suddenly realised it's like that! =(

The baby cousin who isn't really a baby anymore but acts like one to an extend where it pisses the whole world off at times. -_-'

This is the jaejoong look alike cousin. He really looks like jae joong in real life wtf even the way they smile although in this picture it isn't really apparent! -__-'

But his brother on the other hand, looks like TEE HAOW BIN.

Except the thin version!

NAH HAOW BIN SEE THIS IS HOW YOU WILL LOOK LIKE IF YOU SLIM DOWN i find the similarities so glaring even the voice arrgh!

Ladies and gentleman, let me present you my extended family wtf.

AHHAHAHA HAOW BIN, MEET KIT FOONG WTF! =__='

My bro sleeping- as usual. -_-'

And I somehow got fever. Must be because of the blazing sun i was exposed to when visiting that said grandauntie. =(

Hmm on the second day was supposed to be at Putri's grandma's open house but due to some transportation problems, it was canceled and i ended up walking in Ikea with the family wtf including my bro woah for the first time in this century wtf. -.-'

I find this picture so yeng wtf.

And due to some unknown reasons, mom asked me to just choose any casual wear instead of my new dress. o.o

ended up she was right because we only went back for dinner and there wasn't much of a celebration and all my other cousins present were wearing some simple attire too. =]

wtf have i got no shame to post this up yes i've got no shame wtf. at least my eyebrows looks nice here and i AM indeed that fat so nothing to hide T___T'

why is my life so sad wtf. T__T'

I scraped the skin behind my ankle just few days back because i was wearing this flats! sighs to those who think wearing heels is agonizing wtf sorry but i beg to differ T__T'

wearing flats is so agonizing wtf okay fine maybe it was my fault for not wearing my ankle socks first oh god who have i got to blame wtf NO ONE. T__T'

Some peanut thing. Loves.

The typical i dunno what name biscuit. I think this is kuih bakul? can't be too sure. if it's so, then the direct translation would be basket cake wtf cool name! =.='

The angpaus.

Seriously was so disappointed with this year's collection despite the fact that my paternal side of the family (i only hve paternal extended family anyways wtf) is so huge. If my memory isn't failing me, i remember how as a kid i received angpaus for all the three days.

but now? nobody is in sight even on the second day, let alone receive ang paus. sighs bye bye good ol' days!

Some CJ7 packet from sony erricson!

SIGHS. T__T'

looking at the amount is already a disappointment. looking at how much i get to keep for myself is even sadder for the amount was so pathetic what's the point of CNY anyways? -.-'

Just to show how keng my macro is wtf. -.-'

Another CJ7 angpau dad tore before i managed to take a decent photo of.

I remember how I loved this White Bunny sweet alot as a small child. Well, apparently not anymore. I still prefer mentos anytime.

hmm and an auntie bought us dinner on the 8th on the lunar calender which is everyone's birthdays. just a popular believe. and my uncle's birthday so happens fell on that day and it's really auspicious?

The cousin.

Ahem. -.-'

The cousins. From left: kit foong's gf, kit foong, chloe, kristy and vivian.

sorry if i got the spelling wrong because you know more than I do how we don't interact much WTF.

jaejoong laugh! A LITTLE LA WTF.

So nice the cake! Taste was okay. Got honeydew teehee =)
Got dragon somemore wtf!

Got car so yeng wtf.

Haow Bin you better put in some effort you twin has got a gf already wtf.

I was seated at another table T__T'

from left: mom, bro, aunt, uncle's bro, dunno who, uncle's mom.

yeesang ftw ew.

i've never in my life loved yeesang. it's so commercialised that i would say it's stupid to actually follow the custom of mixing yee sang because apparently it's ONLY available over here. not in anywhere else like hk or china wtf.

the yee sang company make money la! =( it's not even nice in the first place wtf.

Random shot.

Beer?

NANANANAN SCARED YA WTF.

ok tht sums up my cny! =)

Purple Line!

2008-02-17T00:54:00.000-08:00

omg seriously HAHAHHAHAHAHA OKAY!

okay i like that song but then while listening to it i was like 'omg did they just sing about their balls' WTF because from what i heard it was hero singing 'SETTLE MY BALLS' or 'SET OF MY BALLS' with changmin (i guess?) echoing 'MY BALLLLSSS....' behind!

HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH AND THEN I THOUGHT I WAS RIGHT BECAUSE EARLIER XIAH WAS TALKING SOMETHING SOMETHING 'TOUCH MYSELF' WTF AHAHAHHAH!!

and then i quickly reached for my cell and smsed chea but he offed his phone at the time and i asked him about this later on in msn and his reply was...

'is it the SETUP MY WORLD part?'

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH WTF BUT I HEARD SETTLE MY BALLS AMPUN MAAF LA WAHAI TVXQ FANS OUTSIDE YOU DON'T BELIEVE YOU CAN LISTEN AGAIN AND EVEN CHEA SAYS THAT IT DOES SOUND LIKE 'SETTLE MY BALLS' WTF!~

omg okay this is a totally random post but i still wanna post it up cough cough to get ppl like britney's attention HAHAHAHAH SETTLE MY BALLS WEI DBSK PLEASE BRUSH UP ON YOUR PRONOUNCIATION LOLOLOL! =___='

between humanity and emotions.

2008-02-15T20:36:00.001-08:00

yes, i know sometimes i can indeed be carried away a little too far by nothing but my emotions. sometimes, it's really hard juggling between to be insistent that everything should be done according to black and white or to just do what i think is right.

just yesterday after my council meeting i met siow at the guardhouse. chatted up a little and found out that he is expelled- this time for real. this time around, it's because he was caught possesing ciggies.

i know it's wrong smoking. i know it's wrong posessing it in the first place too. but does that mean that he really doesn't deserve a second chance? does that mean that he is a bad guy- the way our moral textbooks descrive students smoking- just because he has this hobby unfavorable to many?

it may not be ideal to smoke, but it's not WRONG to smoke. everyone is different. it's not ideal, but if he likes it, let it be then. it's his prerogative anyway. i just don't think that it's really ruthless for the school to just expel him like that.

he is just fourteen. come on, give him a chance.

many of my friends have this stereotyped impression of him that he is all baddie and stuff JUST BECAUSE he smokes. how can we even judge a person that fast before even knowing him? he smokes, yes. but other than that, i find him a nice guy. he doesn't at all look like the type who will have a million BSLs under his belt.

he is just daring. and that's also because he HAS what it takes to be defiant. i respect him for his guts, although i don't really agree with the way he goes about things sometimes. there are always difference among human beings, but is everyone perfect to an extend where we need no help, no guidance and perhaps no second chances?

he is just different in a major way compared to us, but that alone doesn't make him a bad guy. i find him hysterically amusing, truth be told. he proves many of my friends' assumption that he is just another typical 'shout here shout there niama this that samseng' kid wrong. i remember consulting a few of my friends asking them is he is worht helping, and ALL of them just pronounced an absolute 'NO, NOT WORTH HELPING!' right in my face. and when i ask 'why?' they replied with the typical 'because he smokes'. =.='

WTF. let's blame it in the lack of judgments or inmaturity, whichever you prefer. i still think that he DESERVES a second chance, however you look at it. hello, he is only 14! he has the whole life ahead of him!

he humbly approached me and we talked about his chances of getting accepted again into the school and i dare hope for the best. i can't promise anything but i shall see how things go by wtf thanksbai. please leave your comments in the comment box telling me if he is worth helping or not and why wtf thanks this one true true true dilemma ok!

Happy Valentines!

2008-02-13T03:13:00.000-08:00

Yeap today's valentines.

another year of singlehood. but then it's not all that bad. why? because for all my life i've seen this day as the day where i should be happy for my attached friends- for good or not. it's just so sweet seeing couples all lovey dovey on this day. not that they usually aren't, it's just especially a prettier sight today. =)

and the whole day i really laughed like mad until stomach cramp wtf. especially during mandarin lesson! discovered tht theres indeed so many special talented people around me. like how surayyn can do the angelina jolie lips, how mugilan can break pencils effortlessly with his forehead (and his really funny flip-eyelids-dramatic-look) and the star of the day has gotta be MIDZI.

his tongue can reach both his nose and his chin, he can suck his nose in and make it flat and also how he can rap ppl's name so fast he pronounced Mugilan Anak Lelaki Gunasegeran in ONE SECOND!

NOW, CAN YOU?! MUGILAN ANAK LELAKI GUNASEGERAN IN *ONE* SECOND?!!!

I HAVE SUPERHERO FRIENDS WTF!

i took numerous picturesss of tht! shall upload it later if possible. so sleepy right now T_T"

isn't it funny how things have come to a full circle. I gain nothing but you lose something. Hah!

Happy CNY!

2008-02-07T08:03:00.000-08:00

yeah it's the first day today and i was down with fever. great, just great.

nevertheless, have a happy cny everyone! =D

i shall blog more about this later on. :]

Arrogance has to be earned.

2008-02-05T09:44:00.000-08:00

"People like talking about people. Makes us feel superior. Makes us feel in control. And sometimes, for some people, knowing some things makes them care."

"Reality is almost always wrong."

"There is not a thin line between love and hate. There is -in fact - a Great Wall of China with armed sentries posted every 20 feet between love and hate."

"Truth begins in lies."

"If you can fake sincerity, you can fake pretty much anything."

now, who doesn't agree with me? isn't it all so ironic yet true at at the same time?

Happy Birthday Billy!

2008-02-04T19:41:00.000-08:00

yes people it's the 5th of February. billy's bday! :]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BILLY 'SETAN' BOEY!

great. i just realized i don't even know his chinese name. o.o okay the end of this.

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omg wtf i am like...doing tags every single day wtf. seriously it's like i wake up everyday being tagged by different people. =/

Part 1: On the outside
Name: PhooiSze
Date of Birth: 27/ */ 1994 [guess yourself wtf.]
Current Status: Free? wtf.
Eye Colour: black black black and black. =]
Hair Colour: blackblackblack...and...oh did i mention black? truly asian la wtf! :D
Righty or Lefty: Lefty.
Zodiac Sign: Virgo.

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage: Chinese
Your Fear: something but nothing.
Your Weakness: procrastinating at every single thing.

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: yawns okay wake up go to school study come home die.
Your bedtime: when it comes to sleeping i am pretty urm...durable? anytime will do actually.
Your most missed memory: zomg none.

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: coke.
McD's or Burger King: MCD FOR LIFEE! I'V NEVER LOVED ANYONE/ANYTHING AS MUCH AS MCD!!!
Single or Group Dates: single? o.o
Adidas or Nike: nike. i want that bag so cheap 130 only so beautifuuullll T_T'
Lipton Tea or Nestea: errr teh tarik can?
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate.
Cappuccino or Coffee: coke wtf.

Part 5: Do You . . .
Smoke: never i guess.
Curse: a little....;P
Drink: no. not at the time anyway.

Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: no.
To the mall: yes.
Been on stage: yes.
Eaten sushi: no.
Dyed your hair: never have i.

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: no. o.o
Changed who you were to fit in: yes. many many times.

Part 8: Age
You're hoping to be married: god knows when la wtf. 24? i dunno @_@'

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best eye colour: ranibow WTF. -.-'
Hair colour: anythign BUT retarded colors like purple or grey or orange or turquoise!
Short or long hair: i somehow prefer...short haired guys.

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago: having sandwich for breakfast/lunch
1 hour ago: brushing my teeth? i dunno.
1 month ago: wtf?
1 year ago: inside class right now WTF.

Part 11: Finish The Sentences
I love: MCDONALDSSSS!
I feel: like having a spicy chicken McDeluxe right now.
I miss: my McD fries.
I need: MCDONALDDDSSSS!

Part 12: Tag 5 People
One: Billy the bday boy
Two: Howard
Three: Mekk
Four: Toshi
Five: Kyean

List out 5 presents you wish for:
a) plastic surgery WTF.
b) mcdonalds.
c) my dot com/net
d) THAT CHEAP PAIR OF VINCCI HEELS OMG OMG OMG RM55 ONLY!
e) errr....those tagged above to do the tag? i dunno. o.o

the neverending tag

2008-02-03T18:42:00.000-08:00

literally. you tag 5 person they will all tag you back. @_@"

List out 5 presents you wish for :
1. i swear i am not a very demanding girl
2. and i've asked for everything
3. i can possibly ask for
4. or want, for that matter
5. ok fine maybe i would love to have mcdeluxe right now xD

The person who tagged me :
Haow Bin

5 impression of him :
1. typical hamsap look wtf
2. errr...soft at heart? i dunno wtf
3. weird. a little la
4. nice mole damn fatt choi. =D
5. another.....mapler. sighs. =/

If he/she is your lover, you will..
+
please, no. if not EVERYDAY i will hear people calling me short and violent zomggg wtf. this is the most torturous mental abuse anyone could possibly endure wtf.

If he/she would becomes your enemy,what could the reason be?
him calling me short AND violent one too many times T___T'

Pass this quiz to 5 person you wish to know about how they feel about you.
1. Anyone
2. who
3. wants
4. to
5. =D

keith urban, anyone?

2008-02-02T09:35:00.000-08:00

yawns once again i am here blogging at 2 in the morning. *_*

sighs i am so into keith urban right now. first it was kpop and then i gradually moved on to leehom before going gaa-gaa over maroon 5.

and now it's keith urban ftw. hmm and chris daughtry's 'over you' has been playing on my winamp playlist for a few days alrady.

i want ice cream noww T_T"

anyone wanna teman me ice cream date or not wtf! eh but this cornetto blueberry/raspberry/ i can't remember was pretty good. to me la.

or this fried ice thing i tried.

i saw how they make it! they put water into this pan and it miraculously turns solid and forms ice! o.o

hmm overall it was okay. don't really like almonds in my ice cream though. but i still find it so muchhhhh better than lecka lecka. lecka lecka sucks T___T"

attended the forensics workshop in iskl last sat/ two sats ago. can't really remember. and the guy there beside the blue shirt girl gave guided in our impromptu session. he's really good.

and the girl beside him is his gf i guess. and she's pregnant [??]. :o

headed to sungei wang after that. was pretty much a last minute plan and nick and i ended up dragging brit along. :D

yaya i am so fat i am only posting this because i think my eyes look damn oriental here wtf.

or maybe not. T_T" i need to got for another eyebrow shaping session already sometime soon yawns.

lalala i trieddd changing my eye color and this was the best i could do without tutorials. -.-' hmm...if you see properly it's actually dark green but it's not really noticeable anyway so yeah la. my eyes are so black i can't see the pupil in the middle -.-'

yeah so we reached and i got this dress, bracelets and earrings! goood goood deal :]

i am still on a lookout for white heels and i saw one black one yesterday which i really like at vincci and it's so cheap its only 55! but mom said the heels look funny wor so aiya i gave it a pass then. =/

and i need to get a curling thong soon. and a holder to hold my accesories wtf i keep buying but i don't even wear them wtf. but i get happy just seeing the collection wtf why am i like that T__T"

sighs eat chicken ALSO SO YENG LOOK ONE -____________-'

nyam nyam you still owe me 10 bucks nick nyam nyam.

:P ??

ya in his entire life he has never tried nandos before so yeah, nandos it was for him. and he claimed i once called him a chicken peri-peri but i can't recall calling him tht wtf. aiya i can't remember alot of things i said anyway one la.

sighs okay bye off to sleep now T_T" sooo sleep deprived these days wtf.

yawns.

2008-02-02T06:03:00.000-08:00

let me say this lor you like it or not.

if you effing dislike me for whatever reason it is, say it right in my face. don't drag my friends into it. yaya i SO WHAT if i am a suck up? at least thats something i AM GOOD IN, if making friends is what you are talking about. just because you are a social reject it doesn't mean people like me are suck ups for having more friends than your 10 retarded fingers could count.

at least i have friends who are always there when i need them- which i am appreciative of.

opps..and who is there for me to suck up to, may i ask? natalie and gang? hello, like they can even vote this year ah wtfbbq wtf were you la diu they graduated wtf. but if you insist, i would tell you this

i am not even close to them full stop. get it? suck ups? oh what on earth did i get in return? a sweet perhaps wtf?

sighs no more on this topic. I FUCKIN HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE START DRAGGING MY FRIENDS INTO STUFF WHEN THEIR PROBLEM LIES IN ME, NOT MY FRIENDS. got something to say? say it in my face, coward. i am short anyway! aiya short people so noob hor not like they can do anything!

nyaheheh.
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Tagged by ch! =D

List out 5 presents you wish for :
1. hot oil wtf.
2. a piano?
3. MORE PEOPLE TO 'SUCK UP' TO WTF.
4. once again, a dot com/net.
5. Ah?

The person who tagged me :
Chia

5 impression of him :
1. TALLLL
2. super genius wei wtf
3. hamsap wtf or so says his bestie, hb.
4. formal @__@"
5. damn kuai chai wtf help mom do chores wan.

If he/she is your lover, you will..
everyday have to look up wtf neck break wei -_-'

If he/she would becomes your enemy,what could the reason be?
i also dunno wtf maybe errm...him playing dota so much ah i also don't know aiya practically no reasons wan la.

Pass this quiz to 5 person you wish to know about how they feel about you.
1. HB
2. Ariel
3. Brit
4. Suki
5. Kyean

hello world.

2008-02-01T09:43:00.000-08:00

it's 2 in the morning right now and i just feel like posting these up.

a picture i took at a restaurant by the sea not very long ago.

and thats looks alot like sunset, doesnt it? well, the original one is a little different. i like both. :]

the original copy.

feel like posting this up too. during a science experiment. :]

so sweet! wtf.

heidi's reaction after tasting the vinegar drop? i can't remember.

i think there's something wrong with heidi and my tastebuds because we can't seem to find the bitter drop excruciatingly BITTER the way the boys did. @@ in fact i didnt taste much of a thing wtf.

but heidi has got tongue piercing like 2 days ago so maybe that's a valid reason but what about me?! sighs i am dieing....-.-'

i can't remember if i posted this but i just like the colors here! :D

hmm remember how i rant about my writing in my previous post? here. this is my writing...

2 weeks ago, that is. now it's already diff. -.-' i remember how it was wide and fat before i changed it to thin and narrow. and then it became short and tiny and now it's like round and sharp WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. -.-'

i just don't know why i am not like my girl friends! all of them have neat perfect writing! [okay fine maybe except one or two of them sighs]

i'll give you 101 guesses and i bet you wouldn't even have thought that this feminine pencil case belongs to HEIDI LOI EEMIN! o.o

did i talk about these popping choco ping ping and the bro gave me on like the secodn day of school? seriously i swear they are like the best siblings on earth lor! how i wish my bro is like wei zhong lor T_____T" you seela they all damn close one wtf *jealous jealous jealous wtf*

seriously i cant remember if i posted this before either. -.-'

hmm i am quite uncomfortable with certain people reading my blog. i mean, yes, they are my friends. but still sometimes i find them being so hypocritical AND bias towards me JUST BECAUSE i am their friend. by reading my blog they THINK they have a fairly clear idea of who i am and how my individuality in reality is. i am not denying that i might be wrong at times- you don't have to either. when the causes are clear that i AM right, yes, by all means stand by me.

i'm just not comfortable when people whom i think have the least idea about what's going on commenting so effing much. i won't say i DISLIKE it, just uncomfortable. it's disturbing knowing there's someone out there whom you barely even know acting like they know you so much. it's just like..out of nowhere they are suddenly in the picture. maybe it's just me. maybe i am weird i don't know.

p/s: to friends, no you are not the ones i am referring to. =D in fact, thank you for the comments! please leave more!

ah tag by my worshipper wtf

2008-01-30T01:26:00.000-08:00

List out 5 presents you wish for :
1. gold and white nail polish :o
2. new year clothes
3. money money teehee
4. FT ISLAND TICKET ANYONE KIND ENOUGH TO SPONSOR?!!!!
5. my very own dot com/net.

The person who tagged me :
Mekk my one and only faith follower -_-'

5 impression of her :
1. Funny -.-'
2. Helpful! [ahem, he helped me draw my science hw ok fyi! where to find people so ~~stupid~~ kind nowadays!]
3. Damn pandai rub shoe! HAHAHHAHA like omg really wan all white lies! xD
4. Sup Kambing? o.o
5. Tofu lor pfft his skin like girl like tht damn chea choong wan this guy -__-'

If she is your lover, you will..
shit, everyday drink sup kambing yer i tak rela HAHAHAHAHHAHA!

honestly la i hate kambing meat alot T_T"

If she would becomes your enemy,what could the reason be?
he ditching our religion for Howardism or Mekkism or whtever! PZISM FOR LIFE OK!

Pass this quiz to 5 person you wish to know about how they feel about you.
1. yawns anyone la teehee =D

Captain Underpants!

2008-01-29T06:22:00.000-08:00

yeay the library is stocking up these!

hmm...speaking of which, when was the last time i borrowed something there? a year ago, perhaps? i've really gotta find some time to do some good reading. T_T' my vermillion gate is not even near to completion. in fact, i've yet to even reach like what...1/4 of the book?

opps nyek nyek that was how i look like when i was 10 T___T"

one eye is retarded. -.-' sighs and yes, where is my smart card again? for these two days whenever i am gone from the class, which is actually most of the time wtf, i'll always come back to find my place in a mess. i wont point fingers at anyone. it's just that i really dislike how some of you could even open my bag and take stuff from my pencil case. i mean, please bear in mind that there are stuff inside it belonging to others and when it's lost, it's MY problem wtf.

so next time people please ask first okay i think now i super infamous as the 'stationery thief' girl lor T__T"

okayla bye bye. short update only.

i've got it.

2008-01-28T02:52:00.000-08:00

yes people, i've got the pr post.

but like it or not, i am gonna say this one thing. if you can't afford losing, weather or not to a form 2 girl or anyone for that matter, don't run for a post then. we were all given an equal chance, you and i included. if there should be anyone at a disadvantage, it's me, hello? since everyone LOVES having the stereotypical mentality that at 14, i stand practically no chance?

well, looks like i proved you wrong then. i, choong phooi sze, is a living prove that age is NOT a barrier in whatever you do. hard work DOES matter at the end of the day. think an election is everything about popularity? i am awed by your petty mind, that's all i can say.

hello darling, it's 2008, not 1908. you think everything also talk about give face meh. may the best man win, that's what i said all along. i am not your mom- losing to you is not a favor i owe you. you do your best at campaigning, i do my best at mine. fair? yes, very much indeed.

if you can't afford losing, don't even expect winning in the first place. game of life? that's THE rule, darling.

p/s: what makes you think that even without me, you can win? i've got 150% more vote than the candidate who came second, mind you. =) how many votes i've got? i'll leave you the benefit of the doubt. you do your own estimation, i am not gonna disclose it publicly except if a situation arises that calls for it.

Nyam Nyam

2008-01-27T06:15:00.000-08:00

omg why la my tittles always so retarded one! -.-'

okay okay so point of this post is that i've added a comment box! for each post, the comment box is below the date, on the top right side of the post teehee so easy to remember right?! leave more comments la! =DDD

and and tomorrow the results of the SC election will be announced wish me luck and pray for me! nyek nyek win or not it doesn't matter but then again i am power-obsessed wtf can bercorruption everyday so, PRAY FOR ME STILL!

yala yala bye bye mom wanna take over the throne wtf T_T"

tag tag tag again.

2008-01-26T22:12:00.000-08:00

List out 5 presents you wish for :
1. A dog!
2. Height -.-'
3. A purse?
4. More gel pens!
5. McDonald's right now HAHAHAHAHHA why la i so like that one! T__T"

The person who tagged me :
Sho.

5 impression of him :
1. Cute
2. Short TEEHEE!
3. Approachable
4. Has a bad habit of stammering! Stop that! xD
5. Super great popper.

If she is your lover, you will..
wtf does this question mean? if he's my lover then he's my lover la i WILL what?! -___-' commit suicide ah wtf?

and it's highly impossible too because we are twins wtf.

If he would becomes your enemy,what could the reason be?
when he annoys me? vice versa i also dunno la xD

Pass this quiz to 5 person you wish to know about how they feel about you.
1. Mekk
2. Colin
3. Chia
4. Howard wtf although i know your blog is practically dead -.-'
5. Anyone who wanna say something bad about me teehee here's your chance!

hmm i have a new year resolution already! although it's almost the end of january already, i reckon it's better late than never hor! okay yes, my resolution is to minimize my usage of wtf thank you wtf.

lallala

2008-01-26T08:46:00.000-08:00

ok it's 12.48 right now and although it's still far from my usual saturday bed time i am really tired by now already wtf. before election sleep deprived after also sleep deprived pfft i might as well make collecting eyebags my hobby hor why am i so cool wtf.

okay i really want to say this! but i dunno how to!

okay let me make it short and simple. yes, i dislike smokers. BUT i do not hate them. if you are my friend and i like you, just because you choose to puff your youth away wtf, it's NEVER gonna change my opinion of you. why?

BECAUSE IT'S YOUR PREROGATIVE THAT YOU SMOKE, NOT MINE.

and i don't see how we should have this totally different perception of a person just because he smokes. i mean, so what? yes, that might be far from the ideal life many of use would want to live. but it's just bloody unfair that a smoker, an underage smoker most of the time actually, get raised eyebrows from certain parties often deemed friends. i won't say that as friends we must be supportive even if it's obvious that his doings are wrong, but wtf are we to set our moral standards so high to an extend where you can't help but to discriminate others not better off?

yawns maybe i'll talk about this some other day. i just don't like how certain bitches act like it's such a big deal to have a friend smoking and then proceed to just ditch the friendship JUST LIKE THAT WTF. in fact, if you insist, i'll tell you i prefer these friends with 'socially immoral doings' more than bitches who act like they are all that wtf.

tag tag tag

2008-01-26T05:34:00.000-08:00

yaya li shan tagged me like 66 year's ago and now only i am doing it! sorry darling! xD

okayla better later than never hor!

1.What was your dream when you were a small kid?
from what i can remember, i wasn't much of a materialistic person back when i was younger so i really don't know? i was very much sheltered to the extend where i had practically no contact with the outside world so yes, i shall pass for this one.

2. What is the happiest thing in your whole life?
i am happy almost everyday so i can't decide when am i happiest. when i am with friends, maybe?

3.What do you wish to have right now?
money money money wtf.

4. When was the last time your Horse laugh?
few hours ago.

5. What did you realize recently?
hmm i realize how life is fragile. and everything along with it. be it friendships, relationships, material possessions or anything for that matter. we can never stop time, but we can make the best out of it, no?

6. Which bad habit of you that is most unacceptable?
sometimes i become so self-centered that i don't give a damn about how others around me feels whenever i have drastic mood wings?

7. When you are unhappy, what will you do?
i usually talk less and spend some quiet time thinking- by myself.

8. What are you afraid of losing?
my mind.

9. Within 5 years, which target is the most realistic one?
teehee i shall pass for this one also! it's a secret! ;P

10. When you met someone you like, will you confess or hide your feelings?
both wtf. aiya see how things go la. maybe i'll hint? i am allergic to commitments, by the way. i won't hide my feelings, but i probably won't confess.

11. List out 3 kind of people you hate the most.
hypocrites
orang yang over ego wtf.
people who hate me la wtf traffic must flow both ways, right?! =D

12. Define Loneliness.
when i feel like an outcast among my friends. it DOES happen sometimes, let me assure you.

or maybe when i can't hear my own voice for more than 2 minutes, i am lonely WTF.

13. Are you satisfied with your life now?
i am contented, not satisfied. in my books, there IS a fine line between the both.

14. When is the most recent time you felt touched?
yesterday? i really felt touched when a classmate whose existence I've only heard of this year replied with a sweet 'yes...of course' when i asked if he voted for me. it's always these little sweet gestures that never fail to make my day.

15. Where is the most beautiful place that you've visited?
truthfully speaking, i wish i knew. i've always find company of more importance than the location. weird? i don't know la wtf.

16. A song that is playing in your mind recently?
lovesick by ft island.

17. If you have a wish come true, what is it?
yet another secret wtf.

18. Do you have anything to be worried or scared recently?
currently, no. i've known all i want and need to. eyes and ears are all around, mind you, bitches.

19. If the world is going to end, what will you do?
i will go on a food adventure WTF AHHAHAHAHAHA. and try doing as many things i could for instance robbing the bank and doing drugs WTF. -.-'

20. How many people is in your mind now?
7 because i am chatting with 7 people at the time.

To whom i am going to tag!
yawns this aunty here late by 66 years la wtf everyone did already nobody to tag! :(

Miii soOox pReTtyyY oRhHxxX!

2008-01-25T05:11:00.000-08:00

yes, the above stated title is contrary to my previous post wtf. wait wait i am not beign self-obsessed so don't leave just yet! =D

don't ask me about the election. yes, it was this morning. glad that it's over and results will be out by monday so yeah, we shall see. =)

okay the point of today's post is about how pretty girls AREN'T always pretty wtf. there's no ugly girls just lazy ones wtf. really! yes yes i know dolling yourself up is time and effort and energy among whatnots but then again can you not agree that grooming oneself makes one look his or her best all the time? you best may not be THE best but it's still good knowing that you are at YOUR best wtf. die also no regret la -_-'

okay so today's post is, in today's world you must be good at makeup.

OR photoshop at least when all else fails.;P

SUPER FAKE RIGHT?!

but still guess what, it's fakeness that gets 48240 lalas adding you in friendster, not your bareface WTF. ever wondered why your lala friend has got 999 friends in her list while you only have 99?

because she has 99 photos in her gallery when you only have 9. and of all that 99, 98 are either
a) with her face heavily caked
b) she's good in photoshop and she tries super hard to make her mata sepet big. -.-'

and the other one photo? oh, that must be a photo of her cute cat, no doubt.

face it, it's a cute world now. or at least, an 'act-cute' world wtf because lemme ask you this...how many alive are GENUINELY cute? you can possibly count them all with your ten fingers wtf . don't ask me what i see in cute girls because honestly speaking, i wish i knew.

everyone WANTS to look cute now! zomg don't believe? let me show you to what length photoshop can help wtf.

WAHHH SO FLAWLESS COMPLEXIONNNN SO PRETTYYY SO PINK LIPSSS!

yeah right. -.-' flawless eh?

HOW ABOUT THIS HAR?!!!! !
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NAH TAKE THIS! ORI PIC!

FLAWLESS HOR! THAT ONE FLAWLESS THIS ONE WHAT?! ANGELIC AH ZOMGWTFBBQ?!

don't ask me why do i have no shame in putting up both the edited version and the unedited just to prove that i am ugly wtf because to that question i have no answer T_T" i just wanna exhibit to the world my generosity wah wtf do i sound philosophical enough to be called a philosopher or a philanthropist at the very least ?!! =DDD

sighs why la i so tak tahu malu wan. T____T i deserve a Nobel award. :D

after reading this you don't know how a real cutie is supposed to look like? FRET NOT! i have a perfect example here!
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nah! genuine cuteness! a real naturale! =D

look at his expression! so real! exactly like what you see in harajuku magazines! what you see is what you get! =D

yes yes, cute people does exist. you've just gotta judge properly for yourself or else you'll be disappointed when the time comes to meet your 'friendster lao po' pfft. -.-'

ok the end of today's short (or long wtf) post! bye bye people! =D

ya allah i am so ugly!

2008-01-24T05:30:00.000-08:00

VOTE PHOOISZE FOR PUBLIC RELATIONS DIRECTOR!

yaya i know it's so late already yawnzzz voting is tomorrow. and btw, if you INSIST, my full name is choong phooi sze. there. the whole world now knows my full name T__T"

VOTE FOR ME!

hmmm yumz.

2008-01-24T04:48:00.000-08:00

forensics workshop this saturday and i am still undecided weather to go or not. if i am going for that Quicksilver Revolution or Times Square for that case, will attend then. if not, i don't even think i'll want to wake up that early just for briefings TT

my campaign manager, surayyn!

really, to those who did so much just for me to win, thankkkk youu so much! i can't promise victory but hey, we've all done our best. the rest, we shall just leave it to the wants of sg ians. =)

AND A BIG FAT THANK YOU TO HOW WEI ZHONG AND HIS SIS, HOW WEI PING, for getting me a packet of sugus out of consideration! LALALAL OMG THANKS!

they are such nice ppl! and they are single! who want their msn?! okok i give but first you have to pay me rm5! =DD

so cheap ok considering how nice these ppl are! you pay me rm5 for their add next time when you marry them you inherit 5 billion leh! HAH! YOU WANT TO SAVE RM5 OR GAIN 5 BILLION?! YOUR CHOICE!

i should rant more about things i want in my blog teehee HAHAHA just joking la. omg why am i so stupid today. -.-

~~i want a vaio! ;P~~

Hmmm!

2008-01-22T10:11:00.000-08:00

wtf it's 2 in the morning now and i've just put up my new skin. it was pretty spontaneous actually because i just felt all of a sudden that i don't really like my hello kitty skin as much. and its not exactly done yet. i'll continue it tomorrow or something!

yes yes plain i know -_-' just having the simplistic mood right now. i initially wanted to put 'never judge me, bitch' but i thought tht would be a little vulgar, wouldn't it? don't ask why the theme because truth is, i don't know. lemme ensure everyone reading that i am not emo or anything of that sort because i just happened to find this pretty picture i like and yeapo, banner, it is! =)

okay bai bai i shall update tomorrow or something @_@"

I AM ANNOYED.

2008-01-22T04:16:00.000-08:00

IF YOU PEOPLE DON'T HAVE EVEN THE LEAST BIT OF RESPECT AND/OR CONSIDERATION FOR OTHERS, DON'T FCKIN GET NEAR ME. STAY AWAY. OR I'LL SCREAM. LIKE, REALLY.

you think sugus no need money ah har! when i offer you, YOU EFFING TAKE ONE AND ONE ONLY OKAY! fine, even if you take two it's forgivable but seriously, i don't think i am still gonna act super nice to ppl already even when they take TWO FREAKING PALMFULS OF IT because you know what? it's pretty finished by now wtf.

like today i was offering this form 1 friend of mine cuz she is really a great help and then guess what? her friend rushed over, saw the sugus and without even aknowledging my presence went like 'oh take all' and open her big foot sized palms to get as mcuh as she could. WTF IF YOU GUYS HAVE A DAMN PROBLEM WITH ME SAYING WTF JUST BECAUSE ITS 'UNFEMININE', WTF IS THIS HAR?! YOU TELL ME! YOU FREAKING EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT IS THIS! VERY LADY-LIKE HOR !

my last shot.

2008-01-21T02:41:00.000-08:00

having IT class now.

someone asked me 'do you really want to win this THAT badly' perhaps in attempt to make me seem desperate for it. what can i say? i won't say 'no i don't want it' because that's not completely true. i won't say 'i want it badly' because that isn't right either.

i want it just as much as the others running, full stop.

Body art? i see no harm in it.

2008-01-21T02:19:00.000-08:00

seriously i think since i've been mixing with heidi it not only once, twice, thrice BUT MANY times already that it have crossed my mind.

i think i am crazy. i want piercings wtf.

like really! i know it's so sudden and stupid wtf but i've suddenly see it as something very expressive. and i am not even going through the 'act-matures-oh-so-lala' phase of life, thank you. -_-'

and today that sei heidi came to school- WITH HER DAMN TONGUE PIERCED. and her mom knows nothing about it! i really want to pierce also lor but i doubt i'll be as good as in in hiding her tongue WTF. mom wouldn't permit of such a thing, and i would prefer not to misplace her trust for as long as i can. i won't say i would NEVER get more piercings just because it's against her will because i know there would be a day when i grow up. and i it won't be long before soon when i'll be able to make my own decisions.

but until i am sure enough that it's something i won't regret, i think i'll just suppress my wants. i don't see anything wrong with piercings though. it need not necessarily be something bad. it's body art, in short. and it's really up to someone how they want to view it. =)

sighs wtf i've been wanting to do alot lately. but the undecided me choose not to do anything until my mind is clear off all unwanted interruptions wtf. i really wanna resume my piano. but it'll be hard work and i want to be SURE that short attention span people like me would be able to preserver to the end, which i highly doubt WTF. T_T'

wtf is wrong with me?

2008-01-19T08:27:00.000-08:00

i don't know. i wish i knew. i've just been so emotional these few days.

and you guys know best what that means. when i am emotional, i cut my hair.

gawd, please guide me through this. not again. not so soon. i can almost imagine myself having beautiful long hair. but how on earth will that materialize if i don't stop my tendency of cutting my hair? exactly, wtf is wrong with me?

every time i feel out of place, i cut my hair. it's not that i believe that it will ward off bad luck anyways. it's just so me that i love cutting my hair. no matter how many times already i've told myself i've gotta start somewhere if i want long beautiful hair. sighs. i think i am crazy. maybe i'll shave my head bald one day like britney.

i've been stuffing down alot too lately.

sometimes it really scares the daylight out of me reflecting at my own diet. i mean, given my petite size, who would have guess i eat more than my dad? i seem to find happiness in eating. and i am not even a food expert wtf. i just love the feeling of knowing i can eat that much. and seriously, if this goes on, i can see myself growing sideways already.

i mean, 2 bowls of large rice for a girl my height?

it's depressing, not funny, my dear. what more when people like me has no self control huh? guilt only starts gushing in once the meal is over, and there's pretty much nothing i could do for i've already down the fats. looking at my increasing waistline is even more depressing. and going on a diet isn't exactly my forte wtf. aiya alibaba you all won't understand anyways.

eating has become my way of escaping from the world sometimes. similar to cutting my hair, i eat more whenever i am sad or angry. like seriously, wtf is wrong with me? any doctors to be out there able to explain this symptom of craziness?

i just want to be happy =(

too many things have been running through my mind. i worry too much about the present and the future. sometimes i just can't help wonder would people die of thinking too much?

i think about what future holds for me. i think about what i want and what i need. i think about my goals in life. i think about what do i want to take up in college when it's still like half a decade away.

so much for a 14 year old eh?

another habit of mine is to carry unnecessary burdens on my shoulder. things totally uncalled for actually. i just feel happy being able to help others although more often than not it leaves me angry at myself. angry that i could have done a better job helping myself instead of others. angry that i have to feel so effing insecure all the time.

i've been getting angry so much nowadays that it scares people around me. i am sorry for that lor. it's not something i want. i've never liked the idea of being authoritative. but now i really don't know why things get on my nerve THAT easily. and i thought i've always been strong.

a strong guise, it is?

truth is, i don't know. people say ignorance is a bliss and yes, how true that is. i really want to shout at CERTAIN people around me how much i dislike their temper too, the way they dislike mine. i can't help but feel annoyed sometimes. the same people saying the same things over and over again. i CAN take jokes, but not all the time. i have feelings too. i live, sleep, eat, breathe hatred the way you do too. if you think i won't ever talk back just because i laugh along, you obviously still isn't aware of what's in for you.

i hope you are reading this. happy girls get angry too.

call me selfish but i think i am deserving of the treatment others get.

sorry for all these emo crap. i am just not feeling too well right now and the only way i could express myself is through words. still, i think i could have done better but this is a journal recording the bits and pieces of my life, not some essay-writing competition.

to those who had been there for me, a big thank you from the bottom of my heart. what more could i say?

sometimes, maybe it's true that chemistry does exist. with the right person around, you just feel right. words need not be expressed verbally and one could still feel it.

if any of you really read it up till here, which i really doubt any would, thank you for your time. much much appreciated. =)

never fear, never fear, i now know where you've been

2008-01-18T02:20:00.000-08:00

as everything starts falling into place, i couldn't help but think, is it me being easily impressed or is it really him. my saying is once again proven true. when you run away from a problem, you are only avoiding it- not solving. to be courageous enough to face it need not necessarily be an unpleasant ordeal to go through.

because i am sitting here smiling.

i won't jump into conclusions yet. i am still unsure of myself. maybe it's just an impression and nothing beyond that. when the time comes, we shall see. pls don't question.

I AM A LANSI BITCH!

2008-01-16T00:56:00.000-08:00

now you like or i like? wtf. i won't call it an misunderstanding because truth is, it ISN'T. i am not gonna be a hypocritical bitch here la alrite. all i can say here is i AM an arrogant stranger- so, sue. but still, most of the time i'll suppress that unfriendly nature of mine and STILL smile to strangers AND people i dislike. i laugh to everything and try my best to be friendly to an extend where i really believe that i AM friendly.

opps, got deceived by myself i guess.

the efforts were futile- or so it seems. at first when i heard about how a girl thinks i am a suck-up to ex seniors like Girl A and when i told Girl A that someone thinks i am sucking up to her Girl A's reaction was like

'haiyor cannot make friends wan ar? she must liked me alot pfft. you knowla i so pretty and alot of fans. you very layan me what pfft. everything i say something u always say "oh okay." - AND TURN AROUND >;('

to that girl, you must be pretty jealous that i got to be 'a suck up to a mega superstar.' try harder next life, darling.

okayla ditch the damn bombastic line not like anyone understood anyway. you should vote for me because i ROCK. -__-'

sorry i really want to be modest but time is running out so all i can do is to sell my name as fast as possible, no? and i heard some form 3 girls really dislike me for being lansi wtf. since you've already got this prejudged opinion of me in your mind, let me tell you this. if you think you are the only one disliking me, let me grant you the satisfaction of knowing the truth- i don't like you that much either. your dislike towards me is reciprocated, thankyouverymuch.

wow, we have so much in common we can even be best friends WTF.

yaya i am lansi wtf just because i don't give a f*ck about your existence i am lansi yaya if i am lansi then so be it then because the number of people WILLING to wear my 'vote for PZ' arm band is self-explanatory, and it further proves my point that you are not that much of a significant soul to make a difference to other peoples' lives, LET ALONE MINE.

yes people, i am super lansi wtf. you don't wanna vote for me than disappear la wtf wanna make poeple miserable is it i put up poster you take it down wtfiswrongwithyouharyouuglybitches WTF.

my face can talk, your chest can't. till you get some plastic done, stfu and stop sabotaging my campaigning thanks okay bye. =)

ok i should stop my nonsense. i am losing my mind to the 'kiasu ah por' disease WTF. =D

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to my fellow friends who gave your everything trying to make my campaigning an unforgettable one, i thank you will all my heart. i swear i've lost count of how many 'thank you sooo much' i've muttered over these two days. now that i can witness with my own pair of eyes who are real friends who are there to help in times of need and who are just parasites, it's just another gentle reminded from the guy above that i shouldn't take the people in my life for granted- ever. i

f i win, which is pretty unlikely, i'll buy everyone dinner wtf. it really touched me how the guys in my class are willing to parade around with silly bands all over their body for my sake T_T' thanks a million guys!

seriously, at this point of the game, it doesn't matter if i win or not. it was never much about winning actually. it's more about trying my best and gage how far am i from something i want to achieve.

yaya i know i am so stupid right wtf undeniably my chances of securing a place in the council would be much higher should i have opted for ks3 rep instead but NO, i've made up my mind that it's not something i truly want. it's not something i'll feel happy winning. nuff said. =)

to those who have been supportive, it's just a little bit more till the end. please preservere!

p/s: wanna leave a hate comment? go ahead but pls think twice before saying something wtf because i wanna reply to witty comments only yawnzzz.

SMS kawan wtf.

2008-01-12T06:17:00.000-08:00

i don't exactly remember how it started but coming to think of it now, i am always having only one sms kaki at a time. i've never a phone person. not that i consider myself one anyway. i've always preferred MSN to smsing maybe because i can talk to multiple ppl at a time and it's always more convenient. yes, faster too. i hve low tolerance level for slow stuff wtf.

and yes, back to the topic today. one of the many reasons i get very annoyed when people read my inbox is how they will comment unecessaryly about 'my relations with that guy' wtf ahem when that person is just another random friend. i've always believed in talking ALOT only with people i am comfortable with, somehow. and that's how my inbox grow from 1 msg to 2569 messages wtf.

I SAW A GIANT VERSION OMG! <33>

maybe it's my problem, but i never fail to mix better with boys wherever i go. no, it's not about flirting even. it's just the kind of mentality boys have that makes them simpler creatures to approach and understand.

they tolerate my nonsense, understand my frustrations and is always supportive YET honest. it's a quality lacking in girls around me, to be frank. a true friend would tell you when you are at your best and when you are just being a total psychotic bitch. when they hint how you are wrong, one thing good is that it won't make me feel inferior. maybe it's because i see them as guys and how their opinions don't matter to me, being given that they are just plainly guys in my life of no significance.

and by significance, i mean it as in relationship-wise. as friends, i rather be caught dead than to be taking the friendships for granted. and this doesn't apply for guys only, i mean for everyone around me. if you know my full name, consider yourself a friend of mine. :)

throughout the years, i've discovered my weakest points and strive hard trying to make it my strongest. among which was how i realize that however playful we are, emotions are something we shouldn't toy with. manipulating is easy but not everyone has what it takes to patch the differences later on. if prevention could be helped, why take things for granted?

making friends may not be a thing i am good at. i love speaking up for my own rights. i love watching arguments erupt into dramatic full-blast bitch fights.

but have i mentioned i dislike witnessing misunderstandings? i hate people who takes others for a ride, empty promises and above all, i hate being taken for granted. and the list goes on.

in short, i love bitching but i hate rumors. there.

bitching with the right facts was never a crime. but the existence of rumors are just to defame, defame and nothing but defame teehee. sounds familiar, no?

it's time to open our eyes and judge for real- who are friends and who are foes.

this is it.

2008-01-07T05:52:00.000-08:00

i am running for the public relations officer (pr) post of the student council. i really really did give it much thoughts. i mean, heck, a form 2 against 4 other form 5's. it's gonna big big competition but WHO says just because i am younger i am the least capable? we shall see on that, we shall see. =)

but apparently the post is so effing popular i swear it takes more than just a few poster to win T_T" i don't even think i can WIN in the first place but then again, why not? just give it a shot la.

ok nites bye i hve yet to make my poster yawnnnzzz.

Teacher? SO WHAT.

2008-01-04T03:52:00.000-08:00

don't answer that if you are to tell me how we should respect them because i am gonna prove you wrong in a matter of minutes thankyouverymuch.

guess what, a teacher of mine has a blog. although he blogs under a pseudonym, just one look and i know it's him. how can i be wrong, right? the tattoo, talking about our school, the side view, the gayness. it's just too gay to be true. like what century is this? wouldnt it take like a century more for teachers to start a blog? (especially after how one of our teachers got fired for flaming the school in her blog heh padan muka) and the way he talks about titie bars just...amazed me. for a teacher to say such things with such words is just out of the world. you really need to read his posts to get it but sorry, however much i am shocked AND disappointed, i'll not expose his blog address to the rest of the world so yes, happy finding.

like heck, he uses more 'fuck's than an average 15 year old, so you get the point. there. coming straight out from the mouth of a gay teacher. remember how we used to and still are calling teachers we dislike which so happens to be cissy gay? the word itself is overrated- but who cares- it's the ~~thought~~ hatred that matters. but no, this time around, it's real gay shit.

real.gay.shit.

no joke. it's proven that he's gay, but that's besides the point. it's just that i could never see him the way i did. i can never bring myself to respect him as a teacher. as a human yes, but definitely not as a an educator. i can't imagine how the year 1 kids are put under him. what kinda impression and influence he gives? exemplary role model? not really, i guess. yes, at first i find his posts funny- witty, even- but as i browse through his archives, the humor gets lamer and lamer by the second that it isn't even something left to be laughed at anymore. talking about how he is a diva and how he's the best drag queen in the world wtf. shut up already, you are like approaching your 30s, not freaking 16. and is it just me being kuno-minded or is it the trend nowadays to be addressing one selves the opposite sex?

i can't see myself going 'yo, i am a good boy, nice dude, definitely not a bastard'. (ok fine maybe i am trying too hard to fit in so many things in a sentence) like seriously, i don't see how a guy- an adult, mind you- don't feel shameful talking like such a bimbo when you are holding such a respectable post? you may say your blog is not known amongst us ssg-ians but as for today, I am a living proof that you are wrong. i maybe the the only person reading it, for all i care, but the thing is should your superiors read it, what kinda impression are you emitting? i mean like hello, if you find sentences with a million typical gay-ass 'tau', 'like', 'okehhh' kinda thing and he keeps calling himself THE diva like pfft wtf you don't deserve a living, fag. example of sentences?

'I like, dunno like where to find that top i like tauuu! super cantik tauuuuu! yeah i am such a divaaaaa okehhhh!'

shit. i sound so much like him, HOROR KAN? (something he uses very frequently wtf) i actually fit all three of them in. bravo. Okehhh, it's like, now you tauuu tak i am like, the biggest diva in the world okehh?

goosebumps down my spine thankyouverymuch.

never take your keyboard for granted.

2008-01-02T04:04:00.000-08:00

like really. whcih explains why i didnt blog about my new year pfft. i was typing on this rubber mat. i bought it because i thought it was cool and THANK GOD the pretty hello kitty one was so expensive i couldn't afford because if i ended up buying it i am sure i will feel regretful abandoning it. -__-'

i shall blog more later. school's like reopening tomorrow wtf this holiday REALLY seemED so short pfft. it was just like yesterday when i was eating j.co in our form 1G year end party wtf and now it's the second day of 2008 already. so much have ALREADY happened so far up to this minute. colin and ch on bad terms, our health minister caught in adultery, howard running for the sc post i want and having to face fresh new faces tomorrow wtf.

i am now praying that i'll be able to score myself a place with ample space surrounding it WTF because i wanna put nice nice tissue box and maybe decorate the whole place with teddy bear like it's my house wtf and i also wanna spray my table baby pink thanks.

but that would be vandalism wtf so maybe i'll just resort to wrapping my table with pink wrappign paper and when teacher scolds me i can tear it off dengan yeng wtf okay bye dinner is served! i promise i'll blog later/ tomorrow/ next week! =DDD

tralalalalal~

2007-12-26T23:02:00.000-08:00

you don't have to tell me i am the world's biggest bitch, i am. i was, i am and i will. wanna take over the throne? that will take you another 498798 years of bitching, dear insignificant saddist. didn't you mom teach you not to be greedy? go back to reigning your Land of Faggotary. :) seriously, some people have to start learning that certain words are not meant to be thrown around because a misusage really does make someone sound stupider than what they already are.

today, i shall start off with the overrated 'fuck'. like seriously, it's not a word you insert into your sentence just and when you like. even when the situation doesn't call for it, many tend to insert it as a verb/noun/adjective, making themselves sound like some total idiot sometimes. i remember some girls in my class using the word without a base wtf. she just dislikes this girl and she went all 'she's a fucker' and it made me go o.o because i really don't know how to respond to such a statement. i mean, if you said 'she's a fucking bitch', i would have understood your point and that the F word is only there to emphasize the following word wtf. like i can't possibly go add like 'yeah right, she's a damn fucker' right?! -.-'

don't get me wrong, i am not trying to portray myself as a total saint because that would be so hypocritical of me. i am not against the word, definitely. the agenda of today's post is still about how ppl misuse it.

next, is something relevant to the above mentioned. yes, 'mother fucker'. like zomg ya allah how do you even define a 'mother fucker'? you can't be meaning it literally, can you? like hello, how many of us here have actually met a REAL mother fucker, genius? and it is in fact pretty offensive because you are dragging the person's MOTHER into it wtf. like zomg if you hate someone, you call him a 'fucker' or whatever, you don't call him a MOTHER fucker. there. i don't even know how to use it pfft maybe i am just too lame for this word. -_-' anyone care to explain please?

now we're moving to the typical ah pek 'ni ah mah chow hai' thing. to those chinese illiterate, let me translate it. it literally means 'you mom smelly cunt' wtf. and that direct trasnlation, i don't even know how to glorify/beautify such a vulgar saying wtf even thesaurus can't help. now what i don't get is, why must you FUCKING (hah there, i am using the word) drag someone's mom into it? and how the hell do you know if her loins is smelly? and on another note, isn't that VERY sexist? why is it all sub-to-women huh? why isn't there anything like 'your dad has a rotten penis' or something?

okay i feel like writing somewhere else already so bye.

wait. why is WTF not mentioned since it's pretty much my trademark? because it's not vulgar, stupid. it's not offensive in however way you choose to view it. it's a mere 3 letter which if directed at no one. and i don't write the F in it's original ofrm, so there's nothing to be worked out about. i don't get it why is it many of you have some godknowswhat problem with me using wtf? it's me it's me it's just me. what is there to be unhappy about?

I am such a geek wtf.

2007-12-23T22:31:00.000-08:00

you know what i love about blogs? it's the insecurities that your past may just vanish into thin air put to rest. you may write a post as and when you feel like it, and the good thing is that your page would never be deleted.

was jumping from blog to blog as usual. but this time around, i don't know why but i still clicked on some links even though i know very well there will be no updates and the blog is well, practically dead. and then i stumble upon this blog of my friend's. she wrote this like a year ago, and i wonder how true is it.

Phooi Sze: u can ask her anything and she has an answer for you. very brave also. . even when the teacher's mad or angry la..the class's so silent.she can put up her hand and ask whether we can go for our break for the behalf of the prefects. haha.. fun to talk to. and, she's the sifu in blogging.. too good dee..

there. it was written a year ago, and i really don't know if it's still applicable.

brave? if it's my straight forwardness you were talking about, rest assured that it's still very much a part of me even till today. but the thing here is that i no longer express that quality of mine like before- the sole reason you saw me as who i was. change or no change? fun to talk to? yes, undeniably i WAS pretty fun to talk to until i don't know when la when i suddenly wake up and found myself boring. i've turned into a full time geek, sorry. -.-' sifu of blogging? definitely not what i am today. not anymore, at least.

oh wells. what do you have to say about me? =)

Overreaction.

2007-12-21T09:36:00.000-08:00

i know you are addressing me, who are you kidding with? but as of the subject of today's topic, you are the one chosen. so, stop acting like and immature fafagly and count your blessings because if it's attention that you wanted, you've got it. =)

please bear in mind that this post is not meant as an explanation, because i shall quote the phrase made infamous my yours truly AGAIN...

i don't owe you an explanation.

there. simple and sweet. back to the agenda of this post. if over reacting is not the word, i don't know what is. if you could be angered this easily, i reckon you need a few more years of pre-schooling before calling yourself a useful member of planet earth. as what putri's mom told me, it is indeed proven that maturity kicks in slower for boys than for girls.

but never have i thought that one could define the word 'slower' for what seems like an entire lifetime. yes, if you tell me a guy matures slower than a girl by like 2 years, i definitely have no doubts about it. but to be slower than your peers by a lifetime? now that's what i call taking things a little too far, kid. perhaps even the best brain surgeons in the world can't do much to help. if you're born with it, live with it.

it has been long since i last did this, but for whatever it is worth, this is exactly what i am doing now. for you. i don't even need to mention your name- you know who you are. although there is no such thing as bad publicity (as claimed by jyp if i am not wrong), the logic in me tells me that by the way you acted, a little fame wouldn't do you good. if a slight mention of the name could cause such a stir, i wonder what would everyone witness should i mention your name, bold it, italic it and perhaps put it in the largest size blogger would allow me to? there, i am being a megabitch again. but who cares? you have no one to blame but your shallowness for it was that which caused you the 'humiliation of a lifetime'.

me england is of no powderfullness but should you need assistance in using the dictionary, kindly ask. i'll be more than glad to offer a helping hand to a 'sad living proof to the beings that human failures do exist', because you obviously DID underestimate AND hyperbolize the definition of 'humiliation'. should you treat such a small occurrence as a matter of life and death, IT IS indeed time that you wake up and 'face the real world', whatever you mean by that. your failure is when your mind (yeah, mind. it's against your will wtf it's your mind. yeah right. *rolls eyes* lalal) keep insisting that us juniors are incapable of speaking our minds.

and just because you are our senior, it doesn't mean that we HAVE to live under your shadow and love you for who you are. it's not obligatory, fyi. there's something i really don't want to break to you at times like this, but IF ONLY you had an idea beforehand how much we dislike you, maybe you wouldn't have harbored such expectations that we juniors have to worship you out of respect. because no, respect are not to be showered unto the shallow ones. it doesn't mean that just because you are older in existence (age is just a number in the mind lalalala i cant hear you lalalala~ -.-'), you can literally throw your weight around and we as JUNIORS have to lower our heads and give in to your ridiculous whines JUST BECAUSE you are older. [!!!]

maybe even I would have tolerated some of these nonsensical rubbish if it weren't you. maybe- just maybe- i would still a degree of respect left for you even by now, if it weren't for your stupid stereotyped mentality that we, or rather, *I*, am incapable of 'humiliating' someone older than me in age. and you really need to get your facts straight before jumping into conclusions that you were betrayed. there. your tendency of overexaggerating and throwing big sounding words which is most of the time, too powerful an adjective to be applicable at the tiny weeny situation you are in which as a guy, you shouldn't make a fuss about. all putri meant by 'justice is served' is how the truth have prevailed. all she was trying to say is that she, just like the rest of the world, saw through your string of lies.

AND YOU DON'T CALL THAT A BETRAYAL, MR LACK-OF-VOCABULARY! =)

maybe you want to sound smart. i don't know. if you can't even make sense out of such a simple sentence, please have a moment of self-reflection before calling ME a bitch. if calling me that makes you happy, let me reassure you here that calling me a bitch DOESN'T do your anger justice. why? simply because i am too thick faced (and i am a self-confessed bitch ANYWAY heh lalala go dial L for loser la). and on another note, it's funny seeing how you make a fool out of yourself by those threats which i am 101% sure WILL NEVER EVER materialize.

never in your wildest dreams, kiddo. it takes wayyy more guts than what you are having now. ;) easier said than done, get it?

and if you need SOMEONE to tell you how it's not even cool to say such things when you can't do it, congrats to you because you've found the honest one. i don't know if it's out of courtesy or whatever shits because obviously i am not someone with a 'beautiful personality' so positive that i could go around sucking up even to people i dislike. i don't believe in treating EVERYONE nicely. there are just people MADE to be hated, and i shall not go against the law of nature wtf. if i dislike you, you know it. you just do. =)

let me make it crystal-clear here. however flattered i am by the fact that a no-brainer hurts himself on purpose (whatever his ulterior motives are full stop i don't care), please bear in mind that i am not to be held liable for any injury/death/medical bills caused by your stupidity. good luck and all the best in cutting yourself. =D

if it was attention that you wanted, I've got none to splurge. if it was sympathy that you needed, i've none left to spare. if it was a fight you had in mind,

bring it on.

because obviously, it's indeed THAT hard for you to form a sentence with zero grammatical and/or spelling errors, let alone create a coherent argument out of your 'here-wrong-there-wrong-everywhere-also-wrong' sentences. if you think being older is a plus point as it makes you a person with a sharper tongue, you are wrong. oh, look who's better at it? i am not facing difficulties when it comes to forming a group of sentences also known as a paragraph. and most importantly, i never run out of things to say. =)

p/s: you need spell check TERRIBLY. 'Anger' is spelt with a single G, genius. =)

p/p/s: stop bothering HER since you think she betrayed you. it's none of her business and all. you've just gotta grow up and handle things by yourself instead of being such a dependent on others. it's a nuisance, you know?

no tittle wtf.

2007-12-19T09:20:00.000-08:00

pictures. =3

My breakfast which i found pretty. -_-'

sinfully sweet wtf.

how i wish my skin is this flawless in reality sighs.

my lashes looks long here although it's barely noticeable in person -.-'

I like this pic alot, somehow.

phone phone.

The christmas deco in Times. =)

which i really love. =)

Dear Santa, the following is my christmas wishlist for year 2007. although i don't own a pine tree at home or have a sock dangling by my bedside, there is no reason for you to neglect my wants and be an oblivious bitch. you may place the gifts by my doorstep, thank you.

1. eyeliners wtf. of all type. kolh, gel, pen whatever.

2. pretty pumps. T.T

3. cash. lots of em.

4. nail polish remover WTF. -___-'

5. GOLD/PINK/BOTH SONY VAIO!!!!

6. a dog! T__T' really wan wtf. i want a maltese!

7. a cool school bag.

8. THAT PINK HELLO KITTY KEYBOARDDDDD!

9. cash.

10. cash

seela, i am not THAT demanding a girl. if you revise the list again, you'll actually realize i ask for things that i WANT because i NEED it. not just anything that's great in monetary value.

okayla bye bye edit pictures now la wtf.

a toast for who i am

2007-12-18T22:27:00.000-08:00

why is it that every time i take the trouble to do a good deed, sometimes all out of the way even, NOBODY says anything about how kind a soul i am yadda yadda. i decreased my bitching sessions drastically and NOBODY thank me for my thoughtfulness (and civilization wtf). for every considerate act of mine, NONE of you were there to witness it.

why? that's because i don't blog about it. and apparently, some of you out there are so used to the mentality that i am who i portray myself to be in my blog. theres no past no present no future of me wtf. i exist now because you see me updating but if i don't update in two days, i am dead. all you guys know is how i am my blog and how my blog is me.

I AM A DAMN BLOG, IN SHORT.

and it's stupid how some of you think you know so much about me just reading my writings. i reach out to the world by writing, but that doesn't mean i am as interesting as my stupid hello kitty banner. to presume that i am a bimbotic megabitch just by reading my ramblings is not only unfair to me but to you to. you know nothing about me, but you choose to carry the misjudged impression of me to death.

i am not saying i am a saint; i wasn't, isn't and never will be. but just because i don't believe in angels, it doesn't mean its FINE to be misunderstood as a satanist. and more often than not, whenever i speak my mind, you sadists never fail to find a valid reason to speak against my opinions which are never biased most of the time (except when i am not in the right frame of mindla wtf). to offer a piece of your mind, you are always welcomed. but what i dislike is you people stringing it into sentences which sounds rather accusive (rude, even) to me lor.

it's as though you are emphasizing on how my opinions are WRONG and how yours are right. let me say it once more, opinions are NEVER WRONG, no matter how biased it is. opinion is a point of view one choose to subject to due to various reasons. and as for me, the reasons are often not mentioned here.

and that's how you people start talking and acting like you've known me for a century already. like you know every single detail of me better than me myself. like you are so sure there's no reasons to why am i talking like a bitch. like how i am JUST A BLOG and my existence is nothing beyond this humble site you visit everyday.

and that's where you are wrong.

but i can't blame you, can i? yes yes it's my fault for not mentioning how so and so really got on my nerves because i don't think explanations are required. i don't owe you any; keep that in mind. what you see are just the exterior. i don't find the point in revealing what, when, where and why a person i dislike offends me simply because this is MY BLOG and why the hell should i blab about the reason THAT person hates ME. if you curious butts really wanna know a fair share on how the other party and i could possibly get so sour, why not you ask him/her then?

in this blog, please keep in mind that you are reading MY thoughts and MINE only. and because you can't literally see the both of us hurling insults at each other, you naturally assume that *I* am the only bad guy here.

you naturally assume that i fuckin slap a kid when i tell you i hate babies whining. you naturally assume that i skin a cat alive when i tell you how much i hate cats.

human nature?

no, i don't think so. all i can say is if you dislike me, you will for the rest of your life. i am not that lovable anyway. who ever said i was? to hate me? you don't need a reason.

you don't have to point out my flaws because that's like stating the obvious. it's everywhere actually. all you need is some patience to read my posts since some of you out there enjoy treating my existence as though i am my blog and my blog is me.

and you can't question my being, because my individualism is not yours to change. =)

Loves,
PhooiSze

Le Tapis Rouge 2007

2007-12-15T20:16:00.000-08:00

Yes, prom in short. i don't even know why on earth they decided to put such a 'catchy' name in latin/ spanish/ italian/ whatever. wouldn't calling it the red carpet be so much easier? nevermind nevermind.

so yes, this was my first prom and probably the last until form 5. why did i even bother going? well, there IS a reason but i don't think it'll be good to disclose it her since that said SOMEONE reads my blog heh.

At the salon near putri's hse.

OKAY SO PEOPLE I CANNOT HIDE ANYMORE. YES, I DID WENT AND RESHAPE MY EYEBROWS WTF.

but so many of you didn't notice! =( whyla you all so insensitive one!

i am vain wtf don't tell me how i should go natural to save walrus because i don't believe in such a cause. look, let's get real okay. with makeup getting so advanced now that it even includes lots of 'scientific researches', do you still believe that a naturale is STILL prettier than a girl with 'layers of paints on her face' wtf. it's okay if you believe that going natural is better, everyone has their own opinions.

but what i dislike is people coming up to me as say 'OMG don't wear makeup la go natural make up is fake beauty!'. hello, who are YOU to be teaching me? yes yes i know i am so vain for my age but to be 'waiting for the right age' every time you want to do something to change your look is pure stupid. how long long can you be alive anyway? what i know is that you'll have plenty of time being dead, so why limit yourself to the the period of one's existence which is merely a number in your mind? and does that in any sense, bother your mission to save the world from using up all its natural resources namely the petroleum to create tubes and tubes of vaseline for us vain people to grow our eyelashes?

and back to my eyebrows, it's the same as make up anyway. it's fake, yes it is. i am born with naturally thick and messy eyebrows, and i am more than glad to emphasize that it was something of the past. if you were to ask me, i definitely look way better now than before, looking back at old pictures. i remember how a teacher once told me that she refused to shape her eyebrows during her wedding because it's 'against god's will'.

if that's the case, don't brush your teeth then. it's GOD'S WILL that you eat and you stain your teeth. =) there, it's the same. and ironically, she does wear makeup. and don't you think it's against god's will that your lips are maroon in color instead of the natural sheer pink?

So shut up and let the narcissists be the narcissists. =D

She looks so flawless in this picture

me again wtf.

seriously, if you were to ask me, i would never want to return to that place ever again. firstly, the lady over there was so unprofessional. we both wanted soft curls but she advised us against it. ok fine, we appreciate your piece of advise because you should know better right?

so she start pinning putri's hair and she suddenly start doing some samurai hair for her. when she voiced out on how she dislike it, the lady freaking bitched about her with me in cantonese.

wait, i mean, TO ME. not WITH me. she start commenting on how putri has no fashion sense and how as customers we should completely trust her and should not question her belief in what's best for us, which i strongly disagree. what putri told me later made sense. we are paying for it, and we have the rights to tell them what we want and we don't.

like hello auntie, we are not your daughter okay wtf.

ok ok skip skip so when she did my hair she was practically so tulan over the incident. i really didn't want her to mess up my hair and so i said 'fine fine do whatever you think is right'. do i look like i had a choice? -.-' ends up, the hairdo was okay but she literally sprayed what seemed like half a bottle of hair spray into my hair, which later caused me uneasiness throughout the whole evening. -.-'

it doesn't feels nice having a rock on your head. T_T"

bare faced wtf.

her with the most expensive looking cheap bag. @@

on the way there.

her room.

she was cleansing her face when i barged in WTF -__-'

nicole's sexy back.

okay people nicole is our friend whom we brought along as afiq's date. however much i want to elaborate, i reckon i cant because knowing me, the explanations shall slowly develop into a shameless session of insult and bitching wtf (not about nicole la pfft).

after we changed.

yes yes why la my pose so tai tai ish wtf while nicole looks like she's scratching her limbs -__-'

a closer shot of myself.

you can't really see the makeup. =( the hint of blusher?

oh, tht's photoshop WTF -___-'

not emo at all -___-'

failed wtf.

yeah yeah i am the shortest bla bla bla -__-'

the ballroom.

the table deco.

the carpet -.-'

sorryla but i have this tendency of snapping random stuff.

nat who came over and snap a pic of herself and later say 'i am so damn cute!'.

haha omg she has the feature of a doll lor really! and she look even more porcelain-ish when she's wearing fake lashes!

candle light.

again.

fyi, there were supposed to be two candles but i had to so itchy butt ask shaun to throw a rose petal into one of the candles with intentions of BURNING IT but he completely covered the flame and the fire went off. -_-'

pic rip off from nat's blog!

we had caesar salad for appetiser. i was more interested with the prawn cracker bowl than its contents. go figure.

secondly, was some soup. was mediocre to me.

this is form nat's blog too.

the main course was chicken. some really liked it but for me, it was so-so only. it tasted exactly the same as the one i had in Hot Mama and the cheese filled chicken from Secret Recipe.

maybe it's because the night wasn't really significant to me in the way the fifth formers felt, that's why. so, you people shouldn't take my comments as a review wtf because i ain't no food expert -.-'

Dessert!

it looks better than its taste. the bisquit thingy was pretty hard and the strawberries weren't sweet enough for my liking.

and here are some random picture we took outside.

Darren. -.-'

because you destroyed many of my pictures, i did not edit your pimples away HAH!

Nic and i.

shaun who has the cutest eyes in the world.

putri's words, not mine. xD

shaun who wanted to act gay wtf.

i don't know them wtf. -__-'

how unelegant T_T"

i find this picture funny wtf.

since when wor darren so tall T_T'

The couple for the night! =D

Nicole (!!!) and Afiq (yawns time for bed WTF why i so mean one la why.)

i look pretty nice in this pic if it wasn't for that stupid darren WTF.

up next are a sequel of picture of Chia Hoong wtf. not meant for the weak at heart. -__-'

I asked him to act gay. I mean, hello, theres a CHRISTMAS TREE beside you. how hard can it be wor?

so no semangat wtf.

still the same pose -.-'

if you notice, all his picture turns out to be expressionless. okay fine, the only expression on his face is the -.-' expression WTF. ironically, me who uses the -.-' so much don't pose like that in pictures.

-___________________-'

okay so he's getting into the mood WTF -__-'

looks like that's the best we can get -.-'.

nat and i!

sadly, i think she's the only senior whom i took picture with. i wanted to take a picture with the president one WTF but he was nowhere to be found pfft.

see what i mean by the -.-' expression.

not took by me i swear cough cough.

and then i started daring darren and putri to go ask for a picture with a random person of the opposite sex and in the picture they must be showing their third finger wtf but they didn't layan me. and then there was this fatso who passed by and i asked putri to go take with him and i laughed and laughed the fatso looked at me omg sorry fatso didn't mean to make fun of you! -__-'

MY FAVE PIC OF THE LOT!

this is err.....the =3 face?

Emily who won Miss Hot Stuff.

seriously she was one of the seniors i didn't really like at the beginning but grew to like later on because i realize she's really one of the loudest and boldest person one could ever possibly meet!

moon making the walk.

moon was eventually crowned Prom Queen. =) congrats! but one thing i was really expecting to witness was her wearing the tiara but i was let down. =( the was no tiara and no that cloth thingy with the tittle miss world wear. @@

slideshow.

in red is sabrina who bagged the Best Dressed award.

another really really nice girl who is very smart. =)

the dancefloor.

i didn't join in the crowd because my date went home and i really wasn't in the mood to dance. by the time they start the dance many was already leaving or lingering about outside the ballroom.

the chandelier which i really liked. <3>

view from the top

is that natalie running across? -___-'

that marks the end of my very first prom! =D did i enjoy myself? well, in a way, yes. but later on when i chatted with nat she asked 'why la you all sitting so quietly like no mood like tht like eating in a normal restaurant?'

HAHAHAHAH OKAY I DON'T KNOW WHY ALSO. -__-'

me who is usually the loud one didn't really wanna open my mouth in attempt to stay lady-like the whole night wtf. stop laughing chea i can see you laughing already -__-'.

overall, i would say it was a real eye opener. i definitely brought home more than just a seventeen magazine and some other vouchers with me that night.

SPEAKING OF THE STUPID SEVENTEEN MAGAZINE, THEY ARE SO CHEAPSKATE TO GIVE LAST MONTH'S EDITION WHICH I'VE READ ALREADY.

but tht's besides the point, actually. -__-'

THE POINT IS GRACING THE COVER IS VANESSA ANNE HUDGENS. OH GREAT. when i saw that in the bag first thing that ran through my mind was 'oh shit what a good start to the night' WTF. T_T' and out of tidak-kepuasan, i went and bought this month's edition the next day wtf because the only reason i didn't want to buy the vanessa's issue when i saw it a few days back was because she was gracing the cover wtf. -__-'

okay one last picture of me wtf. you ppl always say i look cute right! now i show you what's cute wtf.
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I AM SUCH A PLASTIC BEAUTY WTF. it really looks like those korean stars with plastic gone wrong -__-'

yes don't you think it looks like those fake plastic surgery girls? this is SO SO SO PHOTOSHOPPED wtf so you shouldnt be believing your eyes wtf i am not tht cute wtf i am ugly -__-'

those who tells me i am cute in my cbox shall die a horrid death. no joke.

enough of this wtf READ ON NEXT PART.

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seriously one thing that has been lingering in my mind is why is it that people are SO EFFING DEFENSIVE when it comes to matters of height?

imagine this conversation between you and i wtf.

friend: how tall are you?
me: i am 180. =D

there. its like my shortness is of no secret but your curious butts want to know my exact height right? but if i tell you i am an 180, what will your first reaction be wtf.

YOU ARE JOKING RIGHT?!

yes, thts my guess tht tht'll be your ultimate reaction wtf. (damn bad lar u all wtf) and now behold, i shall show you a picture, as a solid material evidence, that you can't lie forever about your height.

what more when you are a boy and you cant wear heels WTF. good luck good luck may your string of lies never be seen through by someone like me who is so good at estimating ever again pfft.

pls click to see a bigger version of it wtf.

i swear both of them are in FLAT GROUND standing straight. and both heights are self-acclaimed. I choose to believe the chinese dude on the left, you see. =)

and this was the convo ch and i had.

me: go take pic with afiq!
ch: NO WAY! I don't wanna take pic with tht fag!
me: he say he's taller than you! now must have pictorial evidence mar!
ch: oh ok ok.

-______________-'
yes, he claims to be taller than chia hoong who is VERY DE TALL wtf. afiq's tall, no doubt. but when i found out he made such a claim my first reaction was 'AHHAHA WHAT!!!' because thats the way my reflexes works, sadly. =)

actually, i don't even give a shit if the guy on the right sees this because this is plain truth. these ppl need to wake up from their vivid imaginations and lead the life of a humble shortie wtf. actually i don't even know if the guy on the right is angry at me because i remember that night when shaun asked how to spell his name i said 'a-f-a-g' WTF.

please pardon my very unlady-like rude manner of speech because certain words my mind makes up are never better off left unsaid as it's like a heavy stone pulling your senses down which results in the cheeky one in you wanting to release itself from the polite good-girl shell it seek shelter from for as long as humans can remember and actually say something that will make a difference to people around you ie offending someone. =)

pfft wtf la those who know me isnt it expected pun wtf. -.-' its naturally understood that its a nature of mine i do try abstain but apparently i am failing terrible so yes, i don't owe you an explanation anyways. =D

toodles ppl. leave a comment at my cbox la wtf.

I missed rynn li's concert part II

2007-12-08T21:47:00.000-08:00

yep, thats right.

i bought a new cam! after a lifetime of waiting, who else could be more deserving of a new cam other than me? I was stuck with my canon ixus-godknowswhat for a torturous 2 years, it's time to bid goodbye lah. my ixus was really a bad buy. well, being the retard i was back then, i didn't give much thought to the fact that the smaller the screen, the least it can capture. -.-'

And so i ended up buying this ixusgodknowswhat spontaneously and the rest is history. i wanted sony T something back then but dad insisted on buying canon because apparently canon was better wor.

SEELA YOUR DAUGHTER ALWAYS RIGHT ONE OKAYY! -_-'

although i did wait for a lifetime for a new cam, i only wanted this little thing for like..4 days. =) so overall, i shall say i am pretty satisfied with my decision although i didn't really do sufficient research, which i don't think is even necessary lah.

and on atotally irrelevant note to the above mentioned, guess what color i ended up settling for. Seriously, it's not that i am some goth chic or emo or whatever shitty conclusion many of your are coming to because i do like the color black. yes, i do like it, but it's definitely not my favorite color. well, not anymore at least now that I've found pretty pretty colors like pink and turquoise and white and whatever pfft.

just like that ixuswhatever cam, i had my eyes on the red one initially but they ran out of stock for that particular color so i ended up bring a black one home. accidental, really. and then my l'amour has a really retarded story behind it also wtf. i was indecisive on which to get. the pink's pretty but the back can be easily scratched. the black/black is also nice but but but i am a girl! so i went to the shop and out of my dumbness i booked a pink which was then out of stock. and and and i did the most retarded thing ever. once i reach home i set my mind on getting a black one.

BLARRRGH.

and so i ended up buying the black one, from another nokia outlet. and i have to thank god for it because the supposingly limited edition pink isn't very popular and the last time i checked the prices, the pink is cheaper than the black by a mighty 300 bucks. gila babi i thought limited edition very good one!

and ironically, IF i bought the red ixus and IF i got the pink l'amour, i'll be having exactly what sabrina is having now -_-' coincidence? i don't know lah haiyo.

OKAY BACK TO MY CAM LA WTF.

I ended up buying GREEN. no, that's not a joke. why green, you ask. well, i myself is clueless why the greeness heh. blue and white was out of stock and the pink was in an atrocious shade, so that left me pretty much without a choice. its either the green or the black, and i opted for the green at last. something for a change eh?

=D!

and ladies and gentleman, the smile shutter is like the greatest thing ever invented. yes, you smile and it snaps a picture of you automatically. is that cool or what! =) here are some pictures i captured! =)

=DDDDDDDDD

it comes with a keychain which i really love i don't know why. the one on the right is a phone strap which works as a screen wiper.

keychain.

the ODM watch which comes with it free. ITS SO WORTH IT. retail price for this rather kiddish watch is a mighty rm399!!!

The cam.

Nah, it's a notepad actually. =)

Rynn Li? whatever la pfft.

after editing!

i tell you, this cam has cheapskate purikura software too. dun pray pray. -.-'

the box

my current favorite pair of earrings. it's so worth it!

my freaky eye wtf.

people, the pictures are all taken under extremely dark lightings. i've took some pictures today under bright lights, and it's really good! =D shall post them up tomorrow! =D

I missed rynn li's concert

2007-12-08T09:46:00.000-08:00

yes, I did. Got free tics somemore. sighs.

but on a happier note...

i really really wanted this for like FOUR DAYS.

to be continued heh =D

PFFFFT PLAGIARIZE SOMEMORE LAH!

2007-12-02T07:59:00.000-08:00

Guess what i found. I was never the type of person who likes colonizing my whole blog with videos from youtube because I find them ultra messy BUT this must be given immediate attention zomg.

You know those accusations by both the Korean and Chinese music industry regarding who copied who or who is the genuine one who's the copy cat whatever shit lah. I didn't really give a damn about it because I enjoy music, but I am not an expert in it. So, who am i to be even commenting when I currently have less than 60 songs in my comp now.

What's a failure -__-'

BUT BUT BUT then I stumbled across these videos at Kainen's and gawd, I wonder where do those cina music people even got their grounds to point fingers at others when they are the ones clearly at fault!

Thank God leehom's not there. THANK GOD! -___-' Seela he's original wan wtf. But but but there's this famous hit from Sammi Cheng. And it's totally a rip off from some korean artist! And I was once a shameless huge fan of Sammi!

Just kill me lah. -_-'

And considering I was once a fan of Sammi Cheng! But truth be told I was never and never will be a huge fan of chinese songs. Yes, leehom's the exception but besides that, whatever cheng lin cyndi agent J shits never did the trick lor. There was once when everyone [or so my ah pek cousins wtf lets pray they are not reading this WTF] was crazy over Jolin and the curious me was wondering like some clueless iguana why is it so.

And so being the retard I was, I downloaded some of her biggest hits and boy, what a disappointment. -___-' Firstly, I don't know why but it just reminds me of Ah Beng remix. Secondly, it was so hippy the grandma here cannot bring herself to enjoy it wtf. And last but not least, I didn't understand wtf she was singing.

T___T'

Zomg am I a chinese? *questions self* nono I am an indon WTF -____-'

I don't know lor you Energy people why not you go sleep with JYP or some yongsui guy to get into Korean industry instead of ripping off EVERY song lor T__T' *clap clap* Actually I've never heard of some Korean artists by the name of CB MASS which sound rather obscene but then....AIYA ITS OBVIOUS COPYING LA WTF.

I don't know why hor I remember when I was 10 [yr2004 -.-'] I had a number of friends fancying them and I thought they were so gay pfft. Where's the originality? Where's the CINA spirit?

Fine maybe that is the cina spirit wtf. To copy, to make money, to kill wtf. This is not copying people its not a crime hor these are inspired by only hor? Go diela its black and white copying. -__-'

Wilber Pan? @__@"

Okay I would say in this videos I actually can't point out the things in common if you ask. Not all are copying la to be fair. @__@' Only some. =) See la I am not bias!

Pfft wtf man. I always believe that you don't have to understand what your are listening, as long as it's nice. Take for example, korean songs. I really really enjoy some of it although I really don't understand a shit wtf they are singing. T__T'. When something is good, it's good and yeah...that's good. =D

Drive of life wtf?

2007-11-27T03:30:00.000-08:00

Guess what, since Heidi says drive of life's good, I really stayed up in the night to watch it. TT what a slave to shows WTF. But seriously it's so far so good. Family drama and all. @@

Oh and I earned my very very first 'pay' in my life. Amount was meager, but it's still better than nothing. All the latenights up convincing people to buy hamsters, the first transaction finally took place just now. And of all place, it's at the Ampang Park lrt, which isn't so bad actually, considering how i sold it to a stranger wtf.

Oh and so far, nine gone. I know some of you here ask me to reserve it for you while you keep thinking weather to have it or not. One day yes one day no WTF OKAY WTF. -___-'

SORRY but whatever reservations I promised you are to be called off immediately effective now. =)

Hello you don't expect me to chase over customers just to reserve for you right? First come first serve wtf. And now the two left, I am finding for buyers who are total animal lovers. It consists of THE MOM and THE CHILD. The child's a baby and the mom's just fierce and aggressive. I am planning to sell both of them together.

Anyone wants the mom and the baby? TT *cough cough GINNY?* T__T

OMG

2007-11-25T08:07:00.000-08:00

I AM GOING TO SELL SOMETHING TO A STRANGER FOR THE FIRST TIME IN LIEK TWO DAYS TIME PLS PLS PLS MAY I NOT BE KIDNAPPED WTF WTF MONEY HERE I COME DOUBLE WTF! -____-'

pardon my hyperness WTF. I think i need to wear a tudung also wtf wtf wtf.

Whatever happened to peace?

2007-11-25T07:16:00.000-08:00

Now civics and moral teachers can't tell us how we should be thankful just because we are in malaysia, 'the peaceful country'.

yeah there's rally going on and stuff. Whatever happened to peace, my dear?

Byebyeforest

2007-11-23T22:14:00.000-08:00

Enough is enough. I've decided that i am gonna say bye bye to my bunch of hair in approximately an hour time. It's just so....shoulder lenghty and therefore, annoying and ordinary.

It's not that i wanna be extraordinary but I am a short hair person, I just am. I remembered how I used to cut my hair short and then regrow it to some long thick silky forest for a million times already (till date pun) and it's just not right! Plus now looking back, i think long straight hair is just so..boring. Like the whoel school has long straight hair. Okayla when you let it go, it's unmistakably better looking than short hair we lose hands down wtf BUT then why be ugly for 5 days a week in school having to tie it?!

ya allah i am being such a grandma now. Now if you wish, pls excuse this grandma here becuz she wants to cut her hair dengan chioly wtf.

you know since I was young I had this dream of leaving my hair super long and then curl it but looks like if I cannot get through the annoying growth process of the hair, I'll never live long enough to witness that day. =/

pls pls pls may nothing go wrong with the haircut pls pls pls God give me a second chance in life wtf.

p/s: sorry shaun I am not going to cut it into a mohawk WTF. -__-'

2007-11-23T07:17:00.001-08:00

BUY BUY BUY!

2007-11-23T06:42:00.000-08:00

NINJA HAMSTER! okay fine thts a guinea pig. whatever. Cough cough got errors but you geddit la.

Okayla those who are not interested also can add em to talk about the wind and the moon wtf.

Seriously people, do consider about it. It'll make perfect gifts now that Christmas is around the corner. If you wish to present it to someone as a gift, we'll wrap it in a pretty box with a note bearing whatever you want to say to the receiver. As for the cages, we currently own TWO and we are planning to give ONE away. Whoever who purchases 3 hamsters and above will be given the cage, FOR FREE.

Or you could buy the cage from me. Even if i can't give you that cage we'll buy one for you, not a problem. Same goes with the water bottle, hay and food. If you wish, we'll purchase everything for you.

NOW IS THAT A GOOD PACKAGE OR WHAT HAR?! BUY LA PPL GIMME FACE WTF. -__-"

HAMSTERS FOR SALE!

2007-11-22T00:26:00.000-08:00

yes people, I have tons of ADORABLE hamsters for sale. It'll make do as perfect pets and as perfect presents now that CHRISTMAS is around the corner! *hint hint* Price negotiable. Those interested do add me at bubbles14510@hotmail.com thank you! =)

and err..i am busy with these stuff so yeah, pictures will come later =D

p/s: HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATALIE CHAI CHAO TENG! =)

2007-11-20T16:31:00.001-08:00

YA ALLAH TUHANKU I AM GOING FOR TUITION NOW

WHAT A GEEK OMG OMG OMG BYUE BYE TUITION VIRGINITY! SUMMORE DURING HOLS WTF!

It feels good.

2007-11-20T06:13:00.000-08:00

to have an old friend talking to you again, all of a sudden. you never dare approach him because you never knew what to say. and then he start talking to you.

it just feels like good ol' times.

No suitable tittle.

2007-11-18T19:21:00.000-08:00

As I scroll down the lengthy MSN list of mine, I am greeted with the same personal messages by the same people for several days consecutively already. A normal one would go like this...

Don't leave me...you are my friends....Form [insert class] rocks!

Or rather, more vulgar ones (and stupid too)...

DIU WHY I GO SECOND CLASS!

Wah, these people not bored one meh write the same thing over and over again? -__-' Some more so vulgar abcd.

Oh, and yes, I am in the second class next year. Regrets? None. Because I don't think it's such a bad thing afterall. The school isn't dividing us solely base on position, so yeah, there you go. I would have been in the first class if it wasn't for that genius [or not] way of streaming. I don't mind, really. I know in the past I DID make numerous posts about how I won't be contented being in the second class and stuff but now it's' different. Company wise, second class isn't all that bad.

Plus cough cough i don't mind giving my place away to a student from another class who has never experience working with the first class students. Talk about us being arrogant and snobbish eh? Now it's time for you to feel how it's like to be wronged. No, I am not denying that there IS, in fact, several snobs in the first class. Come to think of it, which class doesn't have their very own apes huh? But to actually assume that the rest of the class are of the same quality like that few bad apples, don't you think that's a little too much of a generalization?

I do. I really do. I've met really friendly people in the first class. Yes, there's btiches and drama queens and sohais but that aside, we are not that bad altogether! Hello form mates from other classes, if you choose to live with the thinking that we are all egocentric people, go ahead and stay in that shallow shell of yours. I know that many would place the blame on jealousy, but I beg to differ lah. I know you people are not jealous, yes, I am doing you justice on that. It's just that sometimes you are too swiftly carried away by the stream of assumptions.

It's time to think differently. It's time to move out of that stereotyped vision of ours planted from the very beginning- because what the rest of the world think may not be right sometimes. =)

p/s: everything above, I am referring to batch 2007. With new faces to the first class next year, I dare not be too sure. But my bet is that they will be even friendlier. Let's just wait and see, shall we? ;)

Deepavali 2007

2007-11-16T06:47:00.000-08:00

Yeah, had Deepavali at Devyani's. =)

We didn't know where so we followed our instincts whcih eventually turned out to be accurate.

But so scary man cuz the ground floor there was this unit with these 'sensitive lights'. You go near and it lights up. @__@'

Corridor leading to her house..is it? @@

Her house! =D

Gay.Glory.Glamor.

The modern version of Gold, Gospel and Glory. =) See la I read my books one okay not only online everyday!

And then we spent the whole night playing 'Who's in the Bag' or something. -___-'

Ad game which you have to pick a card and describe to your friend the name of the guy in one minute.

Big head wtf.

I finally got a picture of myself with brenda!

I look....bald [?]

Putri!

And then there was this really REALLY pretty painting of a peacock on the floor! Okay the picture doesn't do the real thing justice lor. The real one was very shiny with glitter here and there.

Okay bye ppl. I am confirmed in 2A next year. Oh wells. =)

p/s: why i watermark my pictures? That's for the sake of memories, kawan. =)

p/p/s: thanks devy for openign your house to us! =)

The End.

2007-11-16T05:55:00.000-08:00

As the end approaches, I thought it's only right that everyone have tears all welled up in their eyes as we bid goodbye. No, it's not about the holidays that saddens everyone. Go ahead and grant me longer holidays, I don't mind.

It's just that having to come face to face with the fact that we might never see some of our friends again. The people we took for granted. The people we took for a ride. The people we betrayed. The people we took advantage of. The people who never abandon us although our attitudes towards them were terrible. The people who were always selfless. The people who never fail to be by our side when you need them.

The people who found pleasure lending us a helping hand- despite all the sinful wrong doings we committed without feeling a tad bit remorseful- without complaining.

Although you may argue that none of them leaving were those I cherished much, it just leaves you with your mouth hanging in the air when told they are leaving. It just suddenly hit you that you could have done better than ignoring them. You could have done better than forming cliques and exclude them. You could have done better than shouting insults across the room just to hurt that person.

You could have been a better friend.

But you chose not to. And no don't you dare deny it. You could have treated...take for example, Virgil, better, no?

I could have, but I didn't. He was just another insignificant character in my life. (no I am not saying he's insignificant I am saying he wasn't to me.) He brought us candies from Australia anyway. All we did was crowd around him and then comment on how terrible the sweet is and even hacks is better than that expensive bottle of bon bon wtf and then we'll spit it out right in front of him with this disgusted expression hanging from our closely knitted eyebrows.

And dare you deny you could have done better?

Care about me? I don't think so.

2007-11-14T19:40:00.000-08:00

Sighs, sometimes I don't know what is it that i want exactly. when everything seems fine, I'll never fail to reason and debate with me myself and I. It's not me, you know. Not the evil side, neither it is the good side, not nothing.

I wish.

It's always like this. However happy I think I am this second, it won't be so the next. To actually sink into the moment and enjoy it while at the same time be thankful that it's all happening isn't possible. Not anymore. I'll always find reasons to picture the ugly side of it. The not-so-pretty truth behind everything. It's not that i am negative or anything although many of you out there would argue that I am in fact, the most negative person you've come across. [laughing is another acted up facial expression, you can't judge a person's happiness base on that]

It just dawn upon me that there's always an ugly side to everything. And nothing good last. Maybe it's the facade we hide under, never daring to step out of our comfort zones. Never daring to think for ourselves what might befall us should the happy-happy situation we are in turns ugly the very next second. To think if that's even possible. It's all the work of the mind, if you ask. It could be damaging emotionally, but for whatever it's worth, I'll call it self defence. You might think it's stupidity, but I would choose to call it insecurities.

Which isn't such a bad thing afterall.

I think the most succesful man could fall to nothing but his ego and pride which isn't called for most of the time. And ego and pride orginates from over optimism, don't you think? Some of you might disagree. Still, where does that lead to? Bigger house? Bigger cars? Better holidays? Go figure. Life's definitely way more than that.

To think further than all that's placed in front of you? It may be a long trip emotionally. But sometimes, the trip is worth it.

Dollize.

2007-11-13T00:45:00.000-08:00

Remember those dolls pic I promised 59384957398 years ago?

I never fail to find excuses of why it's not up 48979832 months ago. It's not that i didn't want to load it. I tell you la these set of pictures so mafan can die. It was like...3 times already, every time I feel like loading this pics blogger will be such a bitch and never allow me to.

Well, yeap. Until today when i was looking for that Maroon 5 song in my received files where I see this and I decide that enough is enough and no matter what these pics MUST be up by today. Heh.

Btw, I am into Maroon 5...AGAIN! Like seriously, I loveee them. T__T"

The first person whose pic I edited. See, she got big big eyes!

Alea's. When she saw these, the first thing she said was 'OMG SO UGLY!'

Okay so maybe you have the super model face, not the ugly Blythe doll face. ;P

Brenda! I remember I did put the two pics together but I cannot find the file!

And this pic super fail okay. Cuz the lighting of the pic was very very dark initially and I played with the levels before making the doll face. Sighs. Nevertheless, I still think this pic deserves attention. =)

Our very own Mr Prez 2008!

MWHAHAHAHA. Okay I think this one another failed one. He look too dollish for a human in the first place. Editing is just a No-no for this guy here.

Nat!

There was a reason for why I put it as iDoll BUT I CANNOT REMEMBER NOW!

GOT REASON ONE GOT REASON! And I can't remember wtf short term memory loss T__T'

Mr Prez 2007!

He must be one of the most tolerant guy I've ever met. @__@' I've done so much wrongs that I lost track of it but he never once scolded me.

For as far as I can remember la. -__-'

Last but not least, yours truly.

Yes, I know I really look like a doll here. And that's also thanks to the extra effort I put into this pic la. It was the first pic I edited, so yeap, the interest and zest was still there. =D

Okay the end. Next batch of pics coming soon!

p/s: To those who will still 'fighting for their future' in our very own school hall for the next 3 weeks, all the best to you. May luck be on your side! [and brains too abcd -__-']

p/p/s: I am considering of making blogskins for a living. I knowla my photoshopping skills are still very very mediocre but hey, not like I am charging you 50 bucks for it right. 5 or 15 sounds more like it! o.O Anyone interested? T__T' gimme face la [and $$ too] you can put one day then you rip it off I don't mind. ;P

p/p/s: I AM REALLY BROKE LIKE SERIOUSLY DRY MANNNNNN!

HAHAHAHHAHA

2007-11-09T22:56:00.000-08:00

OMG I KNOW THIS IS MY THIRD POST BUT THIS MATTER MUST BE GIVEN IMMEDIATE ATTENTION HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH!

If you read my cbox you'll notice there's a guy by the name of Hirako who tells me how evil chia hoong is. And I was like who the hell is hirako -__-'

hirako is....haow bin.

=.='

And I read his blog lagi funny can die he thought I invited LIM CHIA HOONG to prom HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA JOKE OF THE YEAR LEH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

And he debated on how nice guys like Azim (whoever he is lah) don't get invited while pervert like Chia Hoong do. @@' Omg I was practically laughing the whole time I was reading it. A cup for Airport B for Boleh Tahan. -__-"

Be careful my dear friend who's going to prom with him. Make sure you bring pepper spray along abcdefg! =)

p/s: HAHAH PEOPLE GO DO ME JUSTICE BY LEAVING A COMMENT THERE T.T'!

p/p/s: nono I am not angry I am just stunted finding out how the whole world misunderstood -__-" it really got me laughing btw!

@__@"

2007-11-09T22:05:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAHAH.

you know what. i was just digging out the archive of someone's blog and i stumble across a comment i made. yes that was at the beginning of the year and looking back at the way i wrote it's really...funny. @@

yes it was so childish and lame can laugh until die lor omg. -__-" I mean, looking back, it's hard to believe how lame a person I was. Yes, some of you may still argue that I am STILL lame now but at least, not as much as I was 11 months ago. -__-'

And what's more stupid was I left that lame comment and had a senior bombing me back and i find out about it like ELEVEN MONTHS LATER. Pun by accident. T.T'

Okayla so looking back at the way I write I don't blame you people who hated me. As a third party I would say those comments went through no filter system and it's downright stupid and wannabeish. So yeap, there you go. Thank god I don't write like that anymore. Or so I think.

NEW SKIN WOOHOOO!

2007-11-09T07:34:00.000-08:00

Edit: after reading my own post I think you should ignore this. It's so...corny it makes me cringe. ARGH. I didn't know I can write so gayly. -__-"

YES I MADE IT! After TWO LONG DAYS, my skin is done!

Thank god it only took 2 days. The first time I tried making took me 20 days. -__-'

Oh why pink? Because I am forcing myself to love this colour. Yes, I hate pink. =) And I didn't know what theme I should put and I came across this really cute Japanese biscuit in deviantart I suddenly thought of Hello Kitty. And through the process of searching for a descent picture, I think differently of that mouthless cat now.

I think it's so...glamorous.

Don't throw stones at me, you Hello Kitty haters. And I tried don't know how many million times of html. -__-' even the picture of the bee (the date there) I had to edit so long. T__T' And and and actually for the posts section I wanted to put another HK picture but then the html's all screwed up so aiya bee also nice la. I'll try attending to that when I am free. And I am going to put a nice picture for my comment box and the rest soon.

^^ I FEEEL SO GIRLY EHEHEHEHE WTF ABCDEFG! =D I feel so gay ^^

Okay people tell me what you think of the skin HARD WORK OKAY! Like so long I didn't touch html now I practically forgot everything. Noob noob. -__-'

Oh and on the other note, dear impersonators, go get yourself a name. I am deeply flattered that you choose to plagiarize my name out of all glam names in the world, but do tell me if you wanna be my sis/bro la! I give you name okay I very nice one! Ling Sze? Phooi Mun? May Sze? Aiya whatever la stop using my name okay I feel so harassed like super star like that later I act like a diva and be snobbish HOW?!

Okay bye bye. Happy Deepavali, albeit a day too late. ;P

Fucked up

2007-11-08T17:57:00.001-08:00

-post deleted blargh.

oh and I am making my blogskin now. It's near completion. I bet many would be surprised as I am not the type who'll put such skins its so pink it's gross.

yes poeple I hate pink. Well, yeah. I'll tell you guys soon why is the skin so gay. Bye.

<3

2007-11-07T19:59:00.000-08:00

I really really want to write now but i don't know how to word it abcd.

it feels weird, knowing that one of your really good friends whom you can talk to is leaving the school. and what's weirder is having hated that person for a long period of time to the extend that you are immune to his presence. you were hurt by this person over and over again you thought you'll never ever belive in best friends or good friends or whatever shits anymore.

and then you guys start talking again. he tells you his stuff and you tell him his. and then suddenly he tells you he wants to leave.

and then you think of life without a friend whom you feel comfortable talking with. oh wells. leave then. goodbye friend. love you. blex.

SSG Annual Concert.

2007-11-07T00:11:00.000-08:00

Okay so here are the pictures of the annual concert. It was pretty good la, considering our cough school's standards. And i took so many pictures but heidi only sent me some. T.T

Personally I like performance by The Chess the most. haha whteever la.

The lights I was greeted with once I step in.

Whyla I have this child photography fetish nowadays. -___-"

The girl whose phone I used the entire night because I don't know wtf was wrong with my phone's cam. =)

Yuka and I!

Okay so maybe my right eye's cacatness is very prominent now but I cannot do anything sighs. Poke it with a fork meh. @#$%^&

The crowd. There were so many people can die okay omg.

This was the first performance of the night. Some hsm thingy.

And what made me happy was....

Looking behind and see a grandma smilling from ear to ear watching the performances.

Maybe her grandchild is in or something. All I can say is she was really happy and I got happy seeing her being happy ABCD.

This was the second dance Darren and I laughed at during rehearsals.

And I went out fo the hall later on as boredom sets in. -___-' You see la this auntie's expression also bored already abcd. This was the expression she wore throughout performances like the girl group dance or the noisy band. HAHAHHAHA!

I was already in the badminton hall already by the time this indian dance came about but since i had a cough cough classmate in it I decided to rush in to snap a photo of it.

And I sort of 'WOAH GO RAVEENA' and the guy beside me gave me the eyebrows. Go die la okay you don't think you very keng ABCDEFG.

Oh and this time around...ignore the auntie.

KOK HOW BROUGHT HIS GIRLFRIEND YO!

Omg really big boy already got girlfriend (cheh cheh CHEH). Hahah everytime I asked him if it's his girlfriend he just smile sheepishly at me. ^^ So sweet can die HAHAHAH. Damn malu okay I turning into auntie already still no boyfriend yet ABCD ahahhahaahh!

Aiya flying solo very very yeng okay shutuppp! -.-'

And they were caught kissing blah but I think that picture alone deserves a post of its own. So, that's story for another day.

Yuka and Putri.

Yuka and I.

Pardon the blur pictures the lighting inside the court was really teribble and I didnt want to use the flash so here you go la.

This is first and probably the only picture which is FLAT.

When I tried to edit the levels its FLAT! o.O first time seeing a FLAT picture lor! Aiya you all don't get what i mean one lah. -___-'

Siang Pau and Putri.

We made a deal to be prom dates in form 5 last year and sadly he's not going this year so yeap...you complete the sentence for me. T.T

I blocked my face out cuz my eyes were half closed abcd.

Yes Mr Prez 2008 doing some gay tricks on the ground. -__-"

Can blackmail him for money abcd!

The emcees of the night.

I love this lollipop looking lighting.

Sighs whyla am I still so fat wtf.

Putri and the hamster wtf. -____-"

Me.

Shaun and Putri!

And I didnt take a picture with him omgwtf. He wore something so gay and I missed the chance of a lifetime to take a pic with him. T__T" So sad okay! abcdefg ABCDEFG ABCDEFG!

Makeup?

You know hor I always told him there's this celeb he resembles but I never got the name right and he never in his entire life watched tvb before so i don't know how to describe.

BUT PEOPLE HOR THIS GUY REALLY LOOK LIKE TAN SHAUN JIN LEHHHHHHH! FAST FAST SAY YOU AGREE WITH ME ABCDEFG!

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PATRICK TAM! (ignore the baby wtf)

Shaun, in case you are reading this (yes I know you are), don't you think you both really look alike @@.

YES I GOT THE NAME RIGHT THIS TIME ABCD. -___-' Okay close the shaun celeb look-alike topic now. =)

Me.

I somehow find this pic very yeng. o.O

Shaun and Melissa!

Okay so i didnt edit it on purpose these pictures. It was just overly under exposed! (the lights, I mean. nothing else -__-')

The sperm cell.

No. That's the bone cell. This one is the sperm cell wtf.

THIS ONE MWAHHA WTF I AM SO LAME LAUGH LA PEOPLE -___-"

Laugh at my shallowness not the lights wtf.

Okay bye feeling really tulan now over someone and the mom abcdefg okay. Bye!

p/s: wtf=abcd. =)

p/p/s: It was zhong who kept asking me not to use wtf @__@' So abcd is the replacement -_-' memang father figure la that one whoever his daughter next time cham la HAHAHAH!

Again

2007-11-06T04:38:00.000-08:00

if what i got isn't satisfactory, i doubt you'll ever be contented with my performance.

but on the other hand, i think i've found the person whom i can talk to whenever i want. no, we are not even that close. it's just how we can relate to each other and how he is more of a listener than a commentor. funny thing is that sometimes, that person may not even say a word of encouragement and yet you still find him a great person to talk to.

hah. irony irony.

Pictures!

2007-11-05T22:14:00.000-08:00

The other day at Mid Valley on the hunt for a prom dress wtf. And heidi loi ee min you effing OVERSLEPT when i called you for 2384732897498 times and when we were shopping only you woke up and told us tht you overslept! -___-'

In Envee's fitting room.

They sell really expensive fugly dresses there @__@' And then there's this one which actually looked pretty good on Putri and we almost bought it wtf. But then when we ask the lady there if we could book it for a day cuz Putri wanted to bring her mom there, she demanded a 30% deposit. So we looked around and got a way better looking dress for a cheaper price.

And then with the good friend here cough me cough, she accumalated enough courage to go pierce her ears!

.... -__-'

And then I followed her to guitar class. It's very near our house .

It's this really small but cozy place. Very homely.

And then hor her intructor has like 2490283098 disc [?] on the wall. He used to be in a band but I forgot the name @@'. The poster looks impressive though.

Childrens' Day.

The crowd. I swear they are the most difficult people I've ever come across I don't wanna have a child anymore wtf.

The balloons.

Putri and I. My eyes look overly huge wtf.

-_-'

And then right, there was this kid who was crying and all. So I went and be the heroine by offering him sweets and a party hat AND guess what.

THE WHOLE ROW OF GIRLS IN FRONT FARKING TURN BEHIND AND GAVE ME THE EVIL EYE!

I tell you kids nowadays are so greedy can die. They were chasing Zhong ONE WHOLE ROUND IN THE BADMINTON COURT just to get that few last sweets. They have like a few already and they don't feel ashamed coming up to me to ~~ask~~ demand for more and more and more sweets!

EH hello I also need to eat one kay? You don't think you cute cute can come harass me for sweets wtf I ALSO NEED TO EAT ONE OKAY NOT ONLY YOU YOU SELFISH BARBARIANS.

And Zhong got molested all over HEHEHEH! [by the kids wtf not me! -__-']

There's this korean kid I talked to for some time. He's one of the bubbliest kids. He showed me a scar on his arm. Nine dots wtf.

His name is Yi Wong. Or Li Wong. Or Yvonne. WHTEVER LAH HAIYORR!

Li Wong/ Yi Wong/ Yvonne! =D

AND THEN I MET THIS ULTRA CUTE KID WHO HAS EYES SO BIG PHOTOSHOP CAN'T EVEN DO THAT! HIS EYES IS LIKE JU PIAU'S EDITED EYE WTF!

Child ~~pornography~~ photography yo!

Don't believe when I tell you his eyes are big?

LOOK AT THIS LA!
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BIG OR WHAT YOU TELL ME?! @___@'

Oh and I remember his name wtf. HONG JIN! He has this sister Sandra whom we talked to and then she suddenly told us that Hong Jin's the bro. o.O

Oh and you know what's more surprising? These infants wear Nike shoes, Guess jeans and Adidas jackets! @___@ I don't remember myself having such luxuries back when i was younger. In fact, I still dont now. -__-' FAIL GILA. @_@'

And then had lunch with Mr Khaw okay bye. -__-'

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2007-11-04T06:37:00.000-08:00

Okayla so I itchy butt cannto tahan must post one wtf.

Stay tuned for more!

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I've not gain any weight but why la my waistline increasing sighs now so embarassed to tell already wtf! My parents keep telling em I am fat!

Usually they are the people who discourages diets and gives us moral supports telling us how we are not fat but this one the other way round! Keep telling me I am fat wtf. Okayla I don't eat that much wtf. Bye.

INTERNET IS DOWN WOOHOO!

2007-11-04T05:31:00.000-08:00

yes my internet is down.

And so my mom offed the comp before i could save the pics and post it here.

I PROMISE REALLY NICE KIDS PIC TOMORROW

and about the concert. gimme time la okay got so many pics edit until can die wtf.

and my 'dad''s commenting here. how cool wtf. HAHAHA BYE.

This whole week.

2007-10-31T22:47:00.000-07:00

Guess what, I got exemption for almost everyday this week. LALLALALALA!

And it's maths now shit. I am determined not to attend maths for the rest of the week since its already a record for not attending her class thsi whoel week lalalala.

=)

but now the darren, wei zhong and jen chung and the rest of the world which confists of prefects have to leave me alone here. Heartless lor wtf! Then they will run away la! And then maths two lesson now I can't go back. That munap already called ma the 'pontenger' wtf!

MUNAP IS EVIL OKAY WTF EVIL. SHE SHOULD JUST BALIK KAMPUNG OKAY! SO EFFING BISING CAN DIE!

I don't mind attending kh tho. But maths? NO. Chances are tomorrow I wont be attending school. MWHAHAHAHAHAHAH and I'll be attending my first piano class after so long lalala wtf. And also do my hair. i want some pink extensions wtf. =)

There's lots of picture but I can't load it now. The cable is at home. T__T'

OKAY LA BYE BYE LA ISH.

Lalal.

2007-10-30T06:53:00.000-07:00

I have so many pics to post up!

But I've been busy this few days sighs. =)

Oh and children's day celebration tomorrow! Omg and you know wht's stupid is I blew so many balloons today I can faint. -__-'

i promise you pictures of tomorrow bye!

Attention.

2007-10-29T08:04:00.000-07:00

To a certain extend, all of us here enjoys attention okay.

I don't see how is it wrong to love attention, really. And definitely, I don't understand a shit about how is it that when people calls you and 'attention seeker' it's supposed to be an insult. And what's funny is that sometimes people can write a page long of comments telling you that you are attention seeking, when their actions clearly proves that they are not very much different from us.

To leave a comment is to demand attention, don't you think?

I am curious, in what sense, if any at all, that my attention seeking nature does you harm? I don't get it how someone can actually call you an attention seeker just after reading a post of yours. You know what..

To make a remark like that, proves that you are no better.

Don't you think leaving a comment is already attention seeking? Smiling to a stranger is ALSO attention seeking? Not forgetting that even talking to people for the sake of interacting slash whatever is ALSO attention seeking?

Applying make up is attention seeking. Wearing skirt attention seeking. Perm your hair also attention seeking. Buy nice bag ALSO attention seeking. -__-' Go die la wtf.

I hereby confess that i love attention. I love love love attention. I can't see how is it possible for me to live without it. And I think it's perfectly normal to love attention. Not like I kill you mom to get your attention wtf. Not like I HAVE to be a whore to get attention double wtf okay.

Wah you people hate attention so much go bury yourself la wtf.

EVERYONE loves attention okay! Even Osama loves attention wtf! If not, he wont' bomb tht WTC. Wah this one bomb one whole building! Osama is a huge attention seeker lor then IS IT?! HE IS SO KAWAII WTF HE LOVE ATTENTION!!!!! ^o^

Yes yes no wonder I find him cute wtf and I think we are very similar to each other. =.='

All of us here are attention seekers, it's just the matter of how many of us have the guts to admit it.

No suitable tittle.

2007-10-26T21:02:00.001-07:00

You know what's the greatest feeling of all?

To tell yourself that everything WILL be alright the next second even though its next to disaster now. To argue and argue and know that you WILL win. To discuss everything over a cup of coffee and know the matter WILL dissolve.

It never cease to amaze me how much i know what will happen. I don't call it prediction. I just know. I just somehow do.

There's so much I am feeling right now about friends and family and yet I cannot pour it out to anyone except to a guy. It's not that everyone around me aren't good friends, it's just that theres certain things you guys won't understand. How can you put yourself in my shoes when we've not experienced a thing in common. And funny thing is how I can carry on living my life although the burden of expectations is still not lifted off my shoulders.

Sometimes, i don't know what you want exactly. Is being happy for me such a hard thing to do? Why must you always compare? Who are you to even teach me? I am not going to follow your footsteps and be a nobody.

I need more time. Bye.

Die la you moral paper blah.

2007-10-25T07:07:00.000-07:00

Edit: I WANT THT GOLD SONY VAIO LIKE REALLY REALLY BADLY! Guess I'll start nagging dad again mwaheheheh! -__-'

Guess what. After reading Brit's post, I suddenly remember how I SHOULD post my moral essay here. I wrote like 2 pages long and I got 3 marks WTF!

WTF. OKAY. WTF!

SERIOUSLY LOR I DESERVE LIEK 13 OUT OF 10 LOR! Those lauyah ppl wrote 1 short paragraph and they got 7! HOW CAN LIKE THT!

Some more I even included smileys and sweat faces in my essay! HOW CREATIVE!

Cheh. No wonder I failed.

Boo.

2007-10-25T04:13:00.000-07:00

I feel happy today.

Cuz I skipped class almost the whole day helping with he Prom votings. And I don't have to see someone's face. Great.

Why can't everyday BE LIKE THIS.

Oh and I am not coming tomorrow. Don't find the point. No exemption= no fun.

Anyone going for prom? I am. =D I don't know la but form one's a little cold towards that event. WHY? -__-'

We're even.

2007-10-22T17:21:00.000-07:00

And you don't have to know why and how.

It's all about the impression, no? Some things are better left unsaid.

Wtf.

2007-10-21T06:01:00.000-07:00

Okay I've been quite urm..happy this week lalala. -__-'

Firstly, it was Putri's open house on Wednesday. Stupidly enough, we didn't take any photos. Blargh. Too busy cough cough. Those present will get what I mean =P

Choco. I swear I didn't arrange it on purpose weih a 'PZ' come out when I opened the box!

MUST BE SIGN FROM GOD THAT I MUST TAKE MORE SUGAR. =)

Okay then on Friday. During moral.

Some were...playing chess.

MANY were cough gambling.

And I am not joining them cuz I am so slow I dunno how to play whatever they were playing. T__T' fail gilerrr -__-' So, Chea and I...started camwhoring wtf. We were so evil we took Desmond's bag to our places and then when Desmond came to take it back we ask him 'WHY IS YOUR BAG HERE HARRR!'

See what malice can do. ;)

Sorry for the lack of...updates.

2007-10-19T20:21:00.000-07:00

Well, I've been busy.

Doing something 99% of my friends have no faith in. Nevermind, I don't need your support. When I make a million bucks, we'll see who's laughing.

Okay, I have a dilemma. For real.

Should I cut my hair short or leave it long.

YES, SHOULD I SNIP IT OR NOT! Cuz you see, it's so annoyign now that it's of, shoulder length. The process of hair growth I've never liked. I am fine with both long or short, although I would say I've pretty much adjusted to life with short hair. Long hair MIGHT look nice on me in the near future but the process of growing is just....agonizing. -__-"

Truth be told, I hate tying my hair. Too stereotyped. 9/10 the population of girls in the school have long hair. And I am one of the very few who decided to cut it short. Although it didn't become a precedent for others to follow like the Emily hairstyle, but people say I look

less fat. -__-'

The cheeks, I mean. So, should it go or not?

AND HOR...since 4837894 years ago I have this vision of myself with long long hair so I can curl it with unique looking locks. But then now, sighs, I doubt so. I seriously need your opinions! Don't ask me to follow my heart because the heart can't think. The brain can. But the brain is currently used for more important matters that could affect my future. Well, yes. It affects more than my hair. How rare do you hear me say something is more important than my hair?

And according to Nick, I am weird because I have this obsession for...hair cuts. -_-"
Guys hate hair cuts so they won't understand. =/

OKAY BYE PLS LEAVE YOUR OPINIONS IN MY CHATBOX ASAP OR YOU MAY HAVE ANOTHER VERY UGLY PERSON AS YOUR FRIEND. =)

Cheesin.

2007-10-16T03:50:00.000-07:00

It's a new record..AGAIN.

not broken by me but my mom.

83666030890!

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omg i didn't know I have such a teror mom. The guy who got the highest in my class yang itu Lee Kok How, the guy who plays like ALL GAMES int he world, scored only a humble 3 million. AND MY MOM....

IS THT 8 BILLION OR 83 BILLION? SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME I AM BAD AT NUMBERSSSS!

Happy Hari Raya!

2007-10-12T21:11:00.000-07:00

Sighs, the irony of it all.

Nevermind, not like many of you actually get what I mean. And I reckon I shouldn't elaborate more. ;P

But the roads are so free these few days I tell you it's so unlike KL. Shopping MUST be good. No crowds, no whatever. It's just you, the shop, and your wallet.

How cool more can the city get?

The evil twin in me somehow wished those who return to their kampungs tragedy or hope tht they'll enjoy nature more to the extend tht they wanna stay there forever and NEVER return. Yeah yeah I am selfish wtf. But the real me is REALLY nice and kind [double wtf] so yeap, I wished them no tragedy.

I just wish tht they'll bring em some sweets sighs. =/

BYE LA SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI BOO BYE! =P

Life is a game.

2007-10-12T01:19:00.001-07:00

Yes, I don't know what went into me cuz I accidentally deleted my previous post with 3489729837 pics which took like 3897425709750 days to upload.

Sighs. I am NOT gonna go through loading those pictures again. So yeah, here are some eye candies a friend sent to me yesterday.

Yeap, when I was busy concentrating on my paper, this was what's happening two floors above.

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Darren: you know who's wei ping?
Me: urm yeah.
Darren: wait..i send you the picture
*receives picture above*
Me: =___='

hahaha but they REALLY look alike weih! replica of each other! XD

I just felt tht I should spread the gayness around! Happy happy! =)

Oh and today, I feel so accomplished.

I bought a fake pack fo UNO cards for 2 bucks. -______________-"

Caption behind the box: Easy to pick up...impossible to put down!

Is it even correct @__@' Even if it isn't this must be one of the better english captions I've seen on the packings of 'made in china' goods.

Just like the real one!

Okay fine, not really. The color's cacated but what do you expect? It's only 2 bucks -__-"

I don't even know why I bought it.....thinking of it now, it's pretty much a waste of money @__@".

Even the instructions is so long.

Full of funny english of course. I mean, YOU'VE ALREADY COPIED 99% OF THE ORIGINAL THING WHY NOT JUST COPY THE WHOLE THING. It just amazes me how people still wanna TRY being original when they've already copied so much, might as well do 100% the same la. As thought it'll even make a difference.

-____-"

Some other random pics I found in my phone.

Putri, Colin and I decided that rewinding those old good times when we were younger wasn't and isn't a crime. =)

Col.

I TELL YOU THAT'S THE STUPIDEST THING THAT I'VE WITNESSED IN SUPERMARKETS BEFORE!!

Imagine having those ribena purple balloon looking monster jumping around on the floor and you are supposed to step on them. So retarded okay!!! And then when you steep it there's some loud 'side effects' WEEEE! or something. And lagi pathetic is kids REALLY steps on it. At the entrance some more omg tak malu meh?

Malaysians, malaysian. -.-'

This year's gone.

2007-10-11T22:20:00.000-07:00

6 down 30 more to go.

Yeap, THIRTY more exams, trials, assessments more to go in 4 more years of my secondary life.

My first final examination of my secondary life's gone for good. For how long can we celebrate? However much I love the first class crowd this year, I am nothing less than sure that we won't possibly see some of them in the same class next year. And till now, only God knows if I am gonna stay in the first or not.

Yes, you may be thinking, so what if I am not in the first? Does the class really matters? No. It doesn't matter at all.

Now, that's where you are wrong.

The company, the crowd, the teacher, the ambiance, the present, the everything.

That's how much it would cost me, should I drop class next year. Results will be out probably in a week or so and I have way too much to worry for. Why? Because I am always somewhere in the middle between the first class and the second. And now that I've paved my way to the top, I know I'll never be contented somewhere else.

Yes yes, talk about how much I don't deserve staying in this class. You're not at all wrong because truth be told, people around me work SO hard to sustain where they are. Me? I've not only procrastinated my prevision for a grand total of two weeks, I did not even touch my KH much. I was and still is the average girl in class. So it really got me wondering, how can a girl stay where she is, when she can't score anything more than an A.

I am a very very greedy girl to want so much when I am not even performing. All I want is everything.

RAWRRRRR!

2007-10-10T05:55:00.000-07:00

NOW SUPER NO FACE ALREADY.

IMAGINE HAVING A NOT UGLY BUT HUMILIATING PICTURE OF YOURSELF POSTED IN SOMEONE'S BLOG WHOSE READERSHIP IS LIKE 200-300 A DAY OR SO WITHOUT ANY EDITS.

T______T

NOT MY FAULT THAT I AM SHORT WTF!!!

IF I HAVE TO GO ON MY KNEES TO GET THAT PICTURE REMOVED, I WILL.

PLEASE LET ME EDIT IT FIRST PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! -_____-"

I am weird

2007-10-08T02:29:00.000-07:00

Now is one of those times when I really don't doubt that statement.

More of than not, I just brush the fact that I am weird aside when people tells me that. Seriously, how weird can I be just because I dislike Caramel cakes? Yes, that's why I had never brought myself to accept the fact that I am somehow weird. People who waltzed in and out of my life told me I am weird. It's yet another thing I can never figure out till today.

Maybe that's one of the question I'll ask God when I die. Blek.

I somehow feel the word 'weird' is so overrated. Maybe it's the lack of adjectives, maybe it's the lack of one's vocabulary. People tend to throw that word at me just and when they like mainly because I differ from them. Yes, to many of my peers, i am one of the more obstinate girls they've ever met. Just because I am not as submissive as other girls, it doesn't mean I am weird. Yes yes, I am different because I am abnormal and all.

How about wording it as 'I am different because all of you are the same' huh?

Yes, I may be obstinate and all and it's neither good nor bad. It's just me. There's no right or wrong in this matter because it's just the way I am. It's just whether you like me or you don't.

It just annoys me how everyone thinks that everything unlike them is weird. Yes, maybe to you, having chicken rice with thousand island topping is weird but I've seen people doing it. [few hours ago, to be precise] Whether or not it's for attention, I dare not be too sure. Yes, it's only normal that everyone has a fair share of their opinions but not everything MUST be subjected to their point of views. As for witnessing a guy poring salad toppings on his chicken rice, I know it's only natural that for a split second, we think that it's weird. [yes, in fact, I even muttered wtf to myself -___-" monolog dalaman okay!]

But then again, there's so many things in this world better left unsaid.

Yes, maybe sometimes, words do get somehow choked out before you realize it. But how often can that happen huh? Once, twice, thrice? But when it happens too often, it's these remarks that breaks a friendship. It's these remarks that marks the end to almost everything between us. Be it my cravings for donuts, my obsession towards Lee Hom or anything else for that matter, sometimes, I can't help but wonder, if I am really "weird"that weird to you, why not just end this friendship with a whack of a knife?

Just like how xiaxue says it, we've got to accept the fact that when people are different from us, it need not necessarily means that it's for the worse. It's just like how sometimes I am SO tempted to shout 'if you think you're so fucking clever, don't bother coming to school la, genius!' at whoever who tells me the questions I put forward are dumb. I mean, what's worse when the guy who tells you so is like what? 10 times worse than you intellectual wise?

And the next time someone tells me off for being who I am, I will. For real.

Life's brief candle.

2007-10-06T08:45:00.000-07:00

Note: I wasn't and isn't emo whtevr and I will not attempt suicide wtf thank you. I just felt like I need to write a piece of my own suddenly. Literature instincts? I know it's bad shut up.

However fragile
who are we to fail God
life's a journey
so adventurous it makes me wonder
are we living for ourselves
or are we here to be puppets
or the one controlling the strings
a thousand miles
knowledge's what we sought
we think highly
of ourselves oh look into the mirror
are we being ourselves
or just part of a play
where nobody
nobody after some time
remember us for who we are
but a slayer
who's nothing more than being selfish
killing others for one self's benefit
reflections reflections
that's life and
forever we shall strive
for we are never satisfied
greedy with all our might
that's life and one day
we shall return to God
life how flesh turns into dust
like how a rich man dies poor
like how we carry nothing to the next world
like how falling leafs return to its roots.

Who are you to be judging me?

2007-10-05T20:14:00.000-07:00

Yes, I said that to a guy four years my senior.

Apparently, he judge me just by reading my blog or rather, just the profile. And he think he's such a smart ass judging me and all not knowing that he was talking to ME. =)

Yes, dear matured senior you got fooled for one and a half hour by a 13 year old, genius.
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Let me show you some screenshots of a convo I had with a distant friend. Okay, not exactly friend pun but nvrm la. It's one of the silliest I had in months/years. -.-'

Enlarge it. -__-"

Super terrible ppl come to me and say hi to me then say I am not lenglui wtf. o.0

I said to him 'apa' becuz tht was what nick said to him and he replied WAT APA? WANNA FIGHT IS IT so yeah, I said apa and he didn't say tht so I said it. I said 'what you want? wanna fight is it?' and he said 'ah can also'.

-_____________________________-"

Aiya nick's definition of having balls isn't playing dota la it's just an example. -__-"

And he said tht nick has no balls when nick refused to accept his 'challenge' and I told him that to different guys, they have diff opinions when it comes to 'having balls'. Yes, note the thing I circled in red.

Read on -__-"

Aiyor you think only you know how to act dumb is it -__-"

he said dota sucks a min ago and now he says its fun bullying ppl, YES HE KEPT CALLING NICK SEI FEI H*I LA I DIDN'T MAKE THT UP -_____-'

I thought maybe I could 'defend' nick a little by telling him he's strong and all but this guy's still so insistent that picking up a fight is fun and to show 'one has balls' despite me arguing that fighting isn't heroic. TRUE WERT FIGHTING VERY YENG MEH?! @__@"

Yeah yeah fighting very yeng losing a pair of arms is more yeng in my opinion wtf. -__-"

Okay that's about it .

No, wait. There's one more.

Looks familiar? -___-"

Yes, this time its another GUY trying to copy the drawing Wei Zhong drew [refer to previous post] asking me not to say wtf. Pure plagiarism! [wanna copy but it's STILL ugly -_-']

Please ppl, stop drawing me pictures like tht asking me to stop wtf except if your drawing's like Picasso or something. [okay maybe I don't know if picasso's an artist, but still..] No wonder I love shaun tan la, he's the only guy who ask me to not stop that habit of mine! That's my trademark wor. TRUE TRUE =D

Exam's in two days. Can anyone instill some sense of urgency into me? Okay la, not all subjects terrible. I'll just name you the subjects I am terrible in. Aiya not alot not alot. =)

Maths, Bm, Geo, Sc, KH, History, English.

Okay maybe that's ALL THE SUBJECTS but nvrm I am strong -__-" CAN ONE LAH. [tidak apa attitude, again.]
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I'LL JUST DEDICATE THIS SMALL SECTION TO HEIDI LOI EE MIN!

Omg this is my ultimate other half/darling/ whtever!

SHE'S SO CARING AND CONSIDERATE OKAY! SHE BOUGHT ME DONUTS! A DOZEN SOME MORE! NOW YOU TELL ME, YOU GOT ANOT FRIENDS TREATING YOU THAT NICE GOT ANOT HAR HAR HAR?!

=D *smiles from ear to ear*

That must be the ultimate kick start to my examination week. Donuts must be some lucky charm okay! [since it's so nice]

wtfftwwtfwtfftw.

2007-10-03T07:48:00.000-07:00

Okay this is just a brief update wtf.

So yeah, apparently some people have problems with me putting wtf at the end up my sentence wtf. -___-" it's just a habit lah not like when i talk to you in real like i am REALLY gonna say wtf pun. -___-" It's just that sometimes when you say some sorhai things you just wanna make it apparent that it's some JOKE although it already is VERY obvious but then aiya sometimes people are just a little slow so with a wtf behind they KNOW that it's a lame joke and wont get offended lor.

A stupid convo i had with a friend yesterday. I used too many wtf and here's wht he 'drew' for me.

Yeah, thanks. -.-'

Yes, a girl in a skirt SHOULD NOT say wtf. -.-' He's the second person who told me not to. The first was foo. Okayla I try to break this habit lah. -.-'

And yeah, i JUST REMEMBER i had a post pretty long ago whcih i haven't completed. And it's full of pictures. Omg how stupid can I be. I can only remember when I was searching for the picture above and I stumble upon some other pics. Okay okay I PROMISE I'll upload it tomorrow. Or the day after, or after. Nvrm.

And there's also some DOLL pics I made pretty long ago which once again, I completely forgot to post. I even edited it and it's ready to be posted BUT I JUST FORGET THINGS. Omg talk about memory loss. -__-" And final's next week. I wonder how am I gonna face it. -.-'

okay i better go now cuz i am VERY tempted to say wtf and i already backspaced many wtfs actually. -.-' so from now on I can only use -.-' to describe the wtf emotion wtf. Darren says it reminds him of me whenever he sees that emoticon. Memang pun teroverused.

-.-'

..........I WANT DONUTS!!! T___T"

Me think me gonna burst big big.

2007-10-02T02:18:00.000-07:00

Wtf okay like seriously I think I am on the verge of bursting already.

Talk about communication breakdown....again.

Like sometimes it's just pure embarrassing, when the other party don't' get what you are trying to say due to languages barrier.

English is indeed the universal language. Don't deny ANYMORE la. And I would say I am REALLY surprised seeing many of my peers can't even understand basic English. I have to go an extra mile to get the message across, which I believe, is an effort too tiresome for both of us. Like seriously, nobody can lend you ANY help when you can't understand something as simple as 'during break and lunch, who do you mix with' means.

Yes, it's so simple yet after numerous attempts, I still fail to get the answer I desire. At first, it was a 'during break and lunch, who do you hang out with' and she didn't get what I meant. So I reckon the word 'hang out' is a tad too hard for whoever she is, so I resorted to 'mix with' and she still don't seem to get what I am saying.

And funny thing is, I don't know who that person is. She added me on MSN and I've made attempts to at least have a clue on who she is but looks like she can't fathom what I am saying so yeah, I guess my efforts are pretty much wasted. I don't mind actually, speaking to them slowly. It just piss me off, seeing that the resources around them are aplenty, they could have at least made some effort to improve. I believe smarter child's just a click away, so is it really that hard to just double click on that buddy of mine and ask him what the word 'mix' means.

Yes, I do know that nobody's perfect and therefore, there must be something everyone isn't good at. Be it language or anything else for that matter, nobody is flawless. I don't mind talking to them slowly if they don't get what I say at first. My impression of them just turns sour once they start making ME look like the one who has a damn problem and proceed to just walk away as though I am the one in need.

If it's not ignorance, I don't know what it is.

I may not be perfect, but I could at least do my bit to help. Because I know how it feels like, to be the only one feeling like an alien when you don't understand what everyone around you are saying. I remember how my cousins used to pass unpleasant remarks over my disability to converse in mandarin. Maybe it was my bad that I can't even recognize my own surname in mandarin but wtf is wrong with that? Just because you guys fuckin speak mandarin, it doesn't make you the superior lot, does it?

And I felt so left out, until I discover my inner talent to BE ABLE TO SPEAK AFTER ALL+ PERCUMA CHINA ACCENT..and also that my mandarin is better than their english. Oh wells, nobody's perfect right? ;) Do some self reflection before commenting on my mediocre chinese. [yes, mediocre, not terrible. -_-"]

I guess it's just the effort to try that shows.