♥ PhooiSze.
I have a great passion for both speaking and writing, hence making me a great friend but an even greater enemy. But even so, i am probably the best person alive! Why?

because i am biased, stupid. I am a PZ after all, hello?


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Pink. At least I am TRYING to. T__T'
Turning people into retards. It's my forte anyway.


Pink!
People who hates me MWHAHAH!


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I am contented.

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Like I've always wanted to talk about this for months already and yet the VIBE keeps pulling me back from logging into blogger and actually type this post out. I've finally found the time and the urge to do this now. In fact, the few seconds blogger took to log me in after i typed my username and password impatiently feels like hours of wait.

I dare say, this is the first time in my life I feel completely happy and satisfied. Maybe it's just me being new to this teenage atmosphere but whatever it is, it doesn't really matter does it? At the beginning of the year I really dreaded the fact that my primary days were over. I knew very well that my secondary life is going to be another chapter of my life. Still, I chose to live in denial that those days where we only has 30 minutes per subject were gone. It had always been nice to know that I am the senior to other primary kids a year or more younger than me. And it was indeed a dreadful process when my peers and I need to come to our senses that we are now the juniors- once again.

I have to say as time took its toll, I, for the first time in my life, experience such contentment. Maybe it's because my circle of friends increases from the stagnant few person to almost everyone in the form. Or it could also be because I grew a mighty few cms. Or is it because I have everything I could possibly dream of?

It's is now that I consider what I really want for tomorrow; plan for my months to come; and plot for my years ahead. It isn't simple, but it's another journey to discovering myself. And I can now finally be sure of my dubious-at-first passion and confidence for speaking. It's just wonderful to shoot people on the point when they offend you with witty words without a single hint of vulgarity. Pretty yet ugly. Bold yet bitchy. Perfect.

And also i have to thank the fabulous people I meet this year. I am still dubious if I should label some of them 'friends' but it doesn't really matter. I have a whole new idea of that word. I've come to learn that certain 'friends' will never stand by my side when i needed help. And even when they smile at you sweetly you can never be too sure if behind that layer of mask hides anger and hatred towards you. I've come to learn that behind that facade lives certain degrees of insecurity . And the lengths they can go to prove they are one lot above the rest. If only you and me can stop being so hypocritical.

I've got enough exposure than any peers my age when it comes to negative influences. Yes, I have friends who smokes, walk out of the class as and when he likes, steals teacher's stuff and what not. But then again, nobody asked me to be influenced whatsoever. So yeah, they are friends of mine and I accept them for who they are. At times, I find them more logical and understanding than you normal humans who so called abhor them and proceed to label them as the 'bad kids' without even bothering to know them deeper. I shall say you've just lost a friend for too stupid a reason. And that, explains alot about you. And what I am trying to say is still, I've met many 'ugly' people who turns out to be way more 'beautiful' than most of you who thinks you guys are beautiful inside-out just because you are deemed 'normal'. And it's a valuable lesson learnt- never to judge a book by it's cover.

As I am typing this, something tells me I am not gonna publish it until end of the year or something. But no, I am determined to publish it now. Why? Because things may and can take a 180 degrees change anytime, and I would have no regret then.

Because I can then feed myself with this memorable post I am so determined to publish even though it's already late into the night.

Labels: friends, Life

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