♥ PhooiSze.
I have a great passion for both speaking and writing, hence making me a great friend but an even greater enemy. But even so, i am probably the best person alive! Why?

because i am biased, stupid. I am a PZ after all, hello?


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Pink. At least I am TRYING to. T__T'
Turning people into retards. It's my forte anyway.


Pink!
People who hates me MWHAHAH!


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Make my own blogskin
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Care about me? I don't think so.

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Sighs, sometimes I don't know what is it that i want exactly. when everything seems fine, I'll never fail to reason and debate with me myself and I. It's not me, you know. Not the evil side, neither it is the good side, not nothing.

I wish.

It's always like this. However happy I think I am this second, it won't be so the next. To actually sink into the moment and enjoy it while at the same time be thankful that it's all happening isn't possible. Not anymore. I'll always find reasons to picture the ugly side of it. The not-so-pretty truth behind everything. It's not that i am negative or anything although many of you out there would argue that I am in fact, the most negative person you've come across. [laughing is another acted up facial expression, you can't judge a person's happiness base on that]

It just dawn upon me that there's always an ugly side to everything. And nothing good last. Maybe it's the facade we hide under, never daring to step out of our comfort zones. Never daring to think for ourselves what might befall us should the happy-happy situation we are in turns ugly the very next second. To think if that's even possible. It's all the work of the mind, if you ask. It could be damaging emotionally, but for whatever it's worth, I'll call it self defence. You might think it's stupidity, but I would choose to call it insecurities.

Which isn't such a bad thing afterall.

I think the most succesful man could fall to nothing but his ego and pride which isn't called for most of the time. And ego and pride orginates from over optimism, don't you think? Some of you might disagree. Still, where does that lead to? Bigger house? Bigger cars? Better holidays? Go figure. Life's definitely way more than that.

To think further than all that's placed in front of you? It may be a long trip emotionally. But sometimes, the trip is worth it.

Labels: confessions, insecurities, One of those times I look at the stars and can't help but wonder

Your Lover's Lover 7:40 PM